The Hurt & The Pain

Do you Ever?

Do you ever feel like you're drowing in your own tears? It's like it's overflowing and hard to breathe .
Do you ever look around and just think negative things about yourself ? "Why can't I be as pretty as her?" or "Why can't I be as strong as he is?"
Do you ever think about what you've done in your past? Wondering what you did to be living such a shitty life you live today.
Do you ever think about how much you miss that one person? That person who made you feel like you were on top of the world , made you feel like their #1.
Do you ever just want to just fly away ? Be free and not stressed anymore .
Do you ever sit around wondering how life can be so much worse than what it already is? You suddenly become grateful and emotional .
Do you ever look at your family and see the love they have for you ? It can be so strong that you never saw behind all the screaming and fights.
Do you ever look at your surroundings a realize how blessed you are? You've finally opened your eyes and saw the light of life.
Do you ever realize how much people may need you ? The thought of someone losing you , actually hurts them.
Do you ever just look at someone and feel their pain & their hurt ? You notice things that people never noticed about you which makes you want to do everything you can to help that person because you know exactly what it feels to be alone.
Do you ever just stare into the ceiling and think about everything you did wrong that day ? You wonder why you do such idiotic things and you start to realize why people have distanced themselves from you .
Do you ever feel that you don't deserve to live a happy and prosperous? All because you have a "nasty past" .
Do you ever just listen to all the cruel things people say to you? You hear them so often you start to believe them .
Do you ever dream about how people would feel if they never saw you again? You feel as if people care deep inside but you're not sure , it can be just a cover up from hatred.
Do you ever wish that you wanted to start all over ? You're so comfortable and used to your "shit" life that you just want something new, something happy.
Do you ever realize how things can go from sad to uplifting, then back to sad?
Gotcha .