my little parts

independance

I'm terrified to be honest with you. I don't want to be like my dad. I want to be independent. I want to be able to. provide for myself and everyone I love. but the place im at, at the people I hang out with? it makes me depend on them. and when I finally get money for myself, I want to spend it all on myself. and I'm a fucking bitch. I literally bought all of you guys birthday presents with my birthday money, and I hate it how usually I would just buy things for myself instead of thinking about my friends. I hate that part of me. I don't want to be my dad having to use his friends truck to get to work.