I Give My All Of You( Saifahzon )

Unexpected Confession

Zon was sitting in the canteen and playing some games on his phone,not eating anything. Saifah wanted to ask but he seemed to be in a bad mood so he just ate his lunch without saying a word.

As for Zon, he's really in a bad mood. Last night,his mother scolded him for his failures in the monthly tests and tutorials. He wasn't fully bothered because of that. He was more upset because of Saifah acting weird with him...for 3 days already,including this day. He usually cares about him too much. Whenever he looks upset or disappointed,Saifah would worriedly ask the reason and make him feel better...but now,he doesn't even seem to be caring. He doesn't even seem to notice his bad-tempered face. That's what make him more disappointed.

Zon glanced at Saifah munching his lunch before standing up to leave the place.

"Ai'Zon! You haven't eaten anything yet.."

"Never mind..."

Saifah got up from his seat and quickly held Zon's wrist,which halted the smaller from his steps.

"You'll have a headache or a stomachache if you're filled with hunger. It's not good. Now come. Eat something na..."
He said it warmly that Zon startled a bit.

But Zon pulled his hand back abruptly and gave Saifah an upset look.

"Why are you worrying for me anyways?..Why don't you just ignore me and stay cold and stern like you did yesterday...huh??" He asked with annoyance but little did he know that it made Saifah's heart clench.

"....What do you mean i'm ignoring you?..When was I cold or stern?..." Saifah asked in a confused and sad tone but still,Zon didn't notice it.

"You were avoiding me! Like how you did when we first met. If you didn't want to be friends with me then why did you ask me to sit with you? Why did you always protect me? Why were you always so nice to me? Then you just suddenly act weird all again. What's with that? I hate it. I hate it when you do that. I hate it when you don't care me. I hate it when you don't give me attention as much as how you always did. I -"

Zon stopped talking and breathed heavily. Then he left Saifah and went to the bathroom half-running,without noticing how the person was left devastated.

Saifah immediately ran after Zon.

"Zon...Zon! Open the door. Let me explain please. I wasn't avoiding you. Zon open the do-"

Saifah was snapped when he heard Zon sobbing quietly. He was shocked and guilt gnawed him all over. He knocked the door with his palm hard.

"Zon...are you crying? I didn't mean to hurt you. Please open the door now,Zon. I can explain."

"I'M NOT HURT! I'M FINE! Just go."

"I know you're not fine. I'm not going til you come out...I'm sorry,Zon. Please..."

"I'll come out later....You go somewhere else....I'm sorry for yelling at you....I was too bothered and annoyed for some reasons and i'm not feeling well,too. I wanna be alone now..just go.."

Saifah sighed in defeat. He hung his head and inhaled to help himself not to stutter to finally make a confession.....

"I...i didn't want to do that again,Zon. I was afraid that i would be carried away again and cross a line that i shouldn't.....i didn't want to ruin our friendship just because of my confusing unknown feelings...I was afraid you would see me as a jerk. That's right. I was avoiding you but not like what you think. I thought i'd be able to control myself if i avoid you a bit......"

There wasn't any response from the one behind the door. Their surrounding was cold and silent.

"Zon...are you listening?.."

There still wasn't any reply. When Saifah was about to say something,the door was unlocked and slowly opened. Saifah felt his heart crack when he saw Zon's eyes.
They were red and watery. But Zon seems to have had relieved.
He stared at Saifah for some time before asking him with his frowned eyebrows and pouted lips.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier? It really was bothering me for some extent."

Saifah was surprised of his action and question. Wasn't he supposed to be confused of my weird confession?..

"..I thought..it would be awkward to let you know...that i have some feelings for you...Don't you feel irritated or despised?...i mean—"

"Why would i feel like that? It's not awkward. Uh..i mean...it's not weird at all. We're very close right? So it's not strange to have feelings for each other..right?"

Saifah widened his eyes at first but then he started chuckling of Zon's previous words. Zon didn't actually get what Saifah meant 'feelings'. The feelings he had for him weren't normal. A friend doesn't have such feelings. They were special,unique and it was only for Zon.

"Why are you laughing?" Zon asked in curiosity and confusion.

"Nothing...so you're not mad at me anymore?.."

"I wasn't mad at you,Sai. It's just...huhh....i don't know...i feel very confused and bothered. In addition,last night my mom scolded me for my grades and said that she would ground me if i don't get a better position next time. It sucks."

"Your mom scolded you so what about your dad?" Saifah asked him teasingly. Zon pouted.

"You want me to get scolded huh?"

"Hahah...not like that. I just wanted to know if your dad scolded you,too."

".......He never cares about me. All he knows is his business and his pride. But that's better. I can live in peace or else...i'll be more stressed."

"Oh...i need to know something. Why..... were you crying back then?..."

"Uhhh...I..i felt guilty and sorry of shouting you harshly...in the canteen. I feel irritated of my stupid action towards someone who actually was very good to me. That's why.I'm sorry,Sai.."

"You don't have to,Zon! It's ok. I understand. Everyone sometimes blow out like that when they're stressed and annoyed....You said you hate it when i avoid you like that right?.. Is it the reason which actually made you confused?...."

"Ummm...yea....it was the main reason..
I'm sorry if i looked like i was exaggerating or being cheesy but i can't help it. I never knew that i have this side of mine...wanting someone's attention and care...weird right?.."

"It's not weird.." Saifah smiled.

"I like it....because at least there's someone needing me."

"...I like it,too. At least there's someone who cares me for real.." Zon beamed widely showing his dimples. Saifah pinched his cheeks.

They're okay again...the sweet,nice friends...well,they were more than friends in everyone's eyes anyways...

Saifah somehow had seen the wanting-attention side of Zon which Zon himself didn't know that he has. Saifah somehow had confessed his feelings for an extent ...unexpectedly,but anyways...Zon was too innocent to understand.

A/N: I know this chapter's a bit too cheesy but i like the cheesy side of Zon and i can't help it. Sorry again for delay.
I'll try to update as soon as i can. Thanks for 1k readers...Special thanks for voting and commenting. Correct any errors i have pls..❤