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Alone in a Room

Man, it's weird to be alone with your thoughts. Lying awake in the middle of the night, just thinking about everything. The room and the cosmos kinda just melt into one.

Honestly I'm just waiting to pass out, so I might as well write here. Today was fun, sorta. I got a free burrito so I guess that was pretty cool. The days have flown by and I don't really keep track anymore. What's the point of keeping track when all you're doing is lazing around waiting for the next chore to come up. I'm not going crazy by any means. At least, I hope not, but I'm kinda bored with everything.

Thankfully, I have some people who have kept me anchored. I don't know what I'd do without them. They make me feel wanted and purposeful, even if I don't impact their life in any tangible, physical way yet.

This leads us into tonight. At time of writing this, it's 10 past midnight. There's nothing but me, my computer humming in my room, and my mom sleeping across the hall. It leaves my mind open. And when it's open, it's vulnerable. Every embarrassing moment from when I was younger and naïve comes rushing in, shaming me despite learning from it.

And then I think about what I am doing right now. I think about how much I gamble on a fantasy. That because I dream it, I can make it happen. Completely forgetting how much relies on others who may not want what I do. I chastise myself for being so stupid. Yet, it all goes away when I feel a message ping. Because I realize that I care too much to worry about the possibility of impossibility. That some things are worth the risk if your heart truly wishes to keep it.

Sorry that got all preachy and TED Talky there. It's fun to be alone with yourself for a little while, I guess.

New Disney part coming soon, as usual.