Starting my daily updates! Even though I'm writing this at 23:15 and my sleep has suffered, I am going to finish this! Let's start from the beginning.
I ended up mowing the lawn when I woke up. I didn't think I was going to but I surprised myself. It was hot, complicated and I honestly don't know how the grass comes back so fast. Bright side, my lawn looks so pretty now! A lot of it is crabgrass because of some weed killer I accidentally used like 2 years ago. Those poor patches of regular grass still haven't come back fully. I just hope it doesn't come back in a few days like it did last time I mowed about a week and a half ago. That was annoying to discover.
I finished my schoolwork this morning as well. I've been enrolled at a community college for about a year now and I've been taking classes to get ahead. I'm already starting college about 2 years ahead because of the work I put in, so that's always great. I just have 2 more classes left for this session: Computer Surveys and Popular Culture. Both are way more boring than they sound. I found out the hard way, lol. Still, I've got one lesson left and then it's finals! I can't wait to be done with it so I can focus on my high school work since that starts soon too.
It's a good thing I finished the work this morning, since I went to see my father an hour after I did. I stayed at his house for about 3 hours. I played Just Dance with my sisters, helped my baby sister unlock the rest of the characters for Smash Bros. and watched Into the Spiderverse until I left.
It was when I got home that I began having a bad day. It seemed like every bad thing that I normally shrug off just hit way harder. I've been feeling self-conscious, and bad news just kept getting piled on me. My father wants to sign me up for family therapy, which would be a good thing if it weren't for the timing and the fact that he never told me.
I start school again in 2 weeks. I'm planning on beginning working for real and he's only starting trying this since my mom issued custody papers. I know he's only doing all of this for his image so he can appeal to the courts and that hurts so much. Like I'm not worth anything to him until he's about to lose me.
When I went to one of my friends for some levity in this, she blew me off. I had a meeting right after with my college honors society. I'm the youngest member at 16. All of the info and discussion flew right by me while I was on autopilot. Before I knew it, an hour and a half was gone. Mom and I went out for ice cream afterward but it didn't really improve my mood much. It still tasted good, but it just didn't feel right.
At the end of the day, I sat down to try a new game I got. Final Fantasy 14. It's the MMO Square Enix put out. The free trial got expanded yesterday so that's why I got it. I'd been meaning to try it but I just hadn't.
But now I'm here. I hope tomorrow's better, because I want to enjoy talking to my friends again.
Goodnight guys. I'll take a page from Kaitlin and leave you with a meme because this part was depressing.
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