Chapter 14 it's over
Everything was off between jasmine and I. I was jumping into things too young when I haven't even matured fully or lived my life yet. The reason I wanted to get married young was the fear of growing old alone. I grew up most of my life alone. Of course I had family who loved, but I always felt alone and empty. I never had nobody to like me or had a crush on me in elementary school or had a valentine until I met Sabrina and sadly that didn't work out. Thinking about all of this made me depressed about my life.
Why couldn't I have true love?
.........5 Months Later:
It was my senior year of high school and I was so ready to graduate. I had participated in band, had an A+ gpa and most of all I had to get ready for college. I had already taken all the test to prepare for college, but my next step was to apply.
College List:
1. Georgia Southern University
2. The University of West Georgia
3. Albany State UniversityThose were my top 3 colleges I wanted to attend but Georgia Southern was my first choice.
.......So first I applied to Georgia Southern and got denied. I was so hurt because this was the college I had my mind on all during high school and now I won't be attending.
I checked my email later on that day and I received an email from the University of West Georgia. I opened the email and and it stated
"Dear Kiyanna,
Congratulations! You've been accepted into the University Of West Georgia!......"
That was all I read and I was happy as ever! I told all of my friends around me and they all congratulated me and cheered me on. Although I didn't get accepted into my first choice, but that was okay! Maybe I was meant to go to UWG!
........I was sitting there extremely bored in my JROTC class so I decided to go online to check my Facebook. I scrolled down and I seen a familiar face in the people you may know section. I looked and it was Sabrina. I was shocked and I went onto her page and it was private. "damn," I whispered then I sent her a friend request.
I haven't spoken to her in awhile. I tried texting her from time to time and I would never get a reply. seems like she got what she really wanted from me was attention until she found a 'nigga' to be with, but I wasn't sweating it though.
......
When I arrived home from school, I fixed me some snacks and drinks, changed into something comfortable put in a movie and I sat and watched it. I felt my phone vibrate so I checked it.
'Sabrina Wilburn accepted your friend request'I went online to see what she was up to.
I went to her page and scrolled down her timeline. Sabrina attends the University of West Georgia.
"Wtf! She goes to that school!" I said to myself. I couldn't believe it and I wondered how this was going to be. As I though about I was questioning whether I wanted to go to that school now because I had mixed feelings. A part of me still loved and wanted to see her but another part wanted to curse her out and tell her how she did me but I didn't know.
Then I began to think about it. Sabrina attends that college. "Oh lord," I said to myself. I don't what this means or what this may lead, but I was really excited to start this new chapter of my life. What if this was a sign that me and her could be together or we were meant to be. By looking at her page it seemed like she was single so I had hope!
......12:00 am
I was so bored but I could not sleep all. There was nothing to eat and nothing on tv. So I just put my earbuds in and went on Facebook.
Feel love by Sean Garrett and Drake was playing in my ear while I went on my timeline.
As I scroll down I paused to see something I didn't want to see.
'Sabrina Wilburn was in a relationship with Timothy Smith Jr. '
I sat there and looked at that post for about ten minutes thinking. Why me? Why do I have to deal with this. What do I do now?
All my hope for us getting together in college was shot. I still loved that girl and still believed we were meant to be together.
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Heartbroken (Lesbian) ON HOLD
Fiksi RemajaAmaury is a stud lesbian with self-esteem Issues. She grew up most of her life alone longing for true love. She sees everyone else happy with their life, but she doesn't feel the same. She meets this one beautiful femme Sabrina. They fall in love an...