IT GETS BETTER WITH TIME. <NOT EDITED>

Chapter Thirty one-conversation

When last did I feel at ease and at peace without sleep but eyes wide open and jolly.

Everything has finally fallen into place and that makes me  happy and thankful that Nathi is considerate and has agreed to give me space to be alone.

It's been two weeks since the incident  and I just don't see myself calling him as yet. Honestly, everything seems to be a dream and everytime I find myself dailing his numbers on my phone, something just warns me and I entirely end up wishing I'd smash the phone into pieces.

I'm afraid that once we get back together, I'll finally wake up from this amazingly tasteful dream.

But I can't help it anymore. I need him, with me.

"Mama. Mbaaaaa," Mpendulo gestures that I kiss him while he holds both my cheeks firmly with his tiny hands.

I kiss him all over his face and he weirdly blushes, hugging me tightly.

Today he is very clingy. Which is weird because most of the time he runs far away from me when I'm this clingy.

He goes back to playing with his gaint toy cars, ignoring my existence as always whenever his toys gather around him.

I look at him, amused. He is so carefree and happy and that by itself is heartwarming.
How I wish I could be him right now.

I sip my cup of coffee and place back my laptop onto my thighs and continue typing my novel, but today is messed up since I'm not entirely focused.

The heavy rain pours not so mercifully and I'm relieved I knocked off early for work. My concentration wasn't pleasing at all earlier on, my mind just mesmerizingly drifts of to another planet which ofcourse is of a human form whom pretty much is intimidating my state of mind.

Mpendulo comes to me sobbing because of the lightening that frightened him.

"Sorry my boy. This stupid lightening is scarying my baby,"
I pick him up and head out of the bedroom so I can prepare his milk.

I catch a glimpse of Sbongi and Kevin kissing at the lounge and I chuckle thinking  about how gogo would freak out at this sight.

That old lady can act insanely.

Their interrupted by Mpendulo's loud sobbing and they both awkwardly stare at me.

"Don't mind us. I'm just making him some milk," I grin mockingly.

"Busi. Hi, how are you?" Kevin questions with a genuine smile on his face.

"She's fine," Sbongi mumbles and I roll my eyes at her.

Aren't we all grumpy today?

"You got your response. How are you?" I plainly respond and place Mpendulo on the Kitchen counter while I prepare milk for him.

This little guy is actually heavy.

"Good. Just your sister being so clingy today, must be the weather," he chuckles.

I laugh when he receives a playful smack from a grumpy Sbongi.

The sight is beautiful to watch as they keep tickling each other ridiculously and whispering in each others ears. These love birds and that tiny almost huge bump of Sbongi is just admirably adorable.

It makes me miss my mischievous moments I shared with Nathi and just that thought makes me foolishly jealous of their lovable relationship.

I need that in my life again.

Just when I take my baby into my arms, the intercom sound echos through the silent kitchen and I rush to pick it up, wondering who could that be? In this stormy weather.