She belongs with me

16

{Caleb}

'She's in my room,' Isaac tells me. 'She seemed pretty upset.' Shit. I shouldn't have made a move on her. I was drunk and stupid. The whole thing has pretty much sobered me up.

'I'm going to check on her,' I say to Isaac before I make my way upstairs. The door of Isaac's room is closed, so I gently knock on it before I slowly open it. Nora immediately looks up from Olivia to me.

'Can I talk to her?' I ask Nora and she nods, getting up.

'She's a mess,' she whispers as she walks past me, shutting the door behind her. I bite my lip and glance over at Olivia. Her head is resting in her hands and soft cries fill the room. It hurts me to see her like this.

'Olivia...' I softly say, sitting down next to her. She looks up to me, her blue eyes filled with tears and I feel my heart break.

'I'm so sorry,' I say to her. 'I shouldn't have done that.'

'I fucked up,' Olivia whispers. 'I... I am the worst.'

'You're not,' I immediately say. 'You didn't do anything, we didn't do anything.'

'But I wanted to,' she admits, so quietly that I can barely hear it.

'What?' I ask her, feeling my heart drop. She shakes her head as she gets up.

'I wanted to kiss you!' she then says and I'm taken aback by her words. Is she serious? She groans as she pulls her hair.

'You're joking, right?' I ask her, getting up as well. I know I said we belong together, but I didn't think she feels the same.

'Yes, I'm joking,' she says sarcastically. 'That's why I'm here, crying over my fucking feelings for you!' My heart skips a beat and my mouth drops open.

'You...' I stammer. 'I...' I'm looking for words, but I can't find anything fitting to this situation. She just confessed her feelings towards me. I don't know if I should be crying or be shouting from the rooftops.

'Just leave it,' Olivia says, laughing as she wipes her tears away. 'I know we will never work.' She starts to head to the door and suddenly it dawns on me, it all depends on me now.

'Wait,' I say as I grab her hand. She turns around to look at me, a startled look on her face.

'I have feelings for you too,' I tell her. 'I just... I thought you could never feel the same about me. I thought you were happy with Liam.'

'I am,' Olivia sighs. 'Or I was...' She sits down on the bed again and I follow her lead.

'I don't know what to do anymore,' she admits, lowering her eyes. 'You are truly amazing and you deserve the best and I... I can't give you that.'

'Hey, look at me,' I say, gently tilting her chin up so she has to look at me. 'You have done more for me than anyone ever has. Hell, you even got into a fight for me.' I laugh for a second before I let go of her.

'I'm not asking you to be with me,' I mumble. 'I know that Liam is a big part of your life and that you love him.'

'So you don't want to be with me?' Olivia murmurs.

'I do,' I immediately say. 'God, I'd love to. But you...' I'm at loss for words as soon as her blue eyes lock with mine. I bite my lip, forcing myself to hold back.

'We can't...' Olivia whispers, but neither of us look away. We just sit there, staring at each other, not wanting to let go of this moment. I can't, not yet. I want to believe this could work, that we could work. I'm not ready to face reality again.

'I should go,' Olivia mumbles and I let her. Even though every bone in my body screams to pull her back and kiss her, to hold her against me, to run my fingers through her soft brown hair, but I just sit there, watching her leave.

She isn't mine, she probably never will be, but my heart feels empty as soon as she is out of sight. I think about her, more than I'll ever admit to anyone. She has become my first thought in the morning, and my last in the evening. She has become a huge part of my life and I want to be a part of hers as well. But I know I'll never mean that much to her. I know I'll never be her number one, the one she always comes back to when life gets hard. And realizing that, hits me, hard. But maybe one day, she thinks that we belong together.

(Is it just me or is wattpad acting weird since a few days? I couldn't even unpublish a chapter yesterday. I hope they fix it soon...)