Convicted Love (Finished!)

Convicted Love 15

A SOLVED SEQUEL # 3: YOU CAN'T RUN FROM THE PAST, YOU KNOW

~ Summer 15 ~

"Summer, seryoso ka? You would just sulk there instead of doing something?"

"We've done everything we can, moron."

Totoo naman eh, kanina pa kami naghahanap ng paraan para makalabas. I sat down and just sighed repeatedly.

"This is your fault." biglaan kong sabi sakanya. Hindi ko nga alam kung bat sinabi ko yun eh.

"Me?! What the!"

"Yes! Your fault! All of these!" I looked at him and he looked back.

Kung ang mga mata ko, puno ng galit, yung sakanya naman, puno ng hinanakit.

"You're seriously doing this now, Summer? Sa ganitong sitwasyon?" there it is, everything about him is pained. I just know it. I can't help but feel guilty about it, pero ewan ko...ang taas ng pride ko.

"Whatever. Hanap na tayo ng paraan para makalabas dito." tatayo na dapat ako nung hatakin niya ako paupo at umupo sya sa harapan ko.

"Seryoso ka talaga ano? Instead of you letting go of the past, ayan ka, asal bata."

"Don't talk to me like that!" sigaw ko sakanya.

"Baket? Totoo naman eh. Ilang milyong beses ba ko dapat magexplain sayo? Bakit ganyan trato mo sakin? May ginawa ba ko na sobrang kasuklamsuklam?"

Surprisingly, hindi ako makasagot. I searched for an answer inside my brain...pero wala talaga.

"Alam mo kung bakit ka ganyan? Kasi takot ka. Takot ka sa nakaraan kaya nagagalit ka. Defense mechanism yan eh, Summer. Nagagalit ka para hindi ka matakot. Nagagalit ka hoping na makalimutan mo lahat ng nangyari dati. Pero nakatulong ba? Hindi naman diba? Lalo mo lang pinapalala eh." 

"Stop it..."

"Sakin mo binato lahat ng galit mo para hindi ka na matakot sa nakaraan. Ako yung nakita mong kaisaisang tao na pwede mong sumbatan."

"Shut up..."

"Sige go. Sumabatan mo ko, Summer. Isumbat mo lahat ng gusto mong isumbat."

"Tama na, Zayne."

"Isisi mo lahat ng gusto mong isisi. Pero kung akala mo, masosolusyunan lahat ng kinatatakutan at problema mo, well you're damn WRONG!"

"TAMA NA!!!" and BOOM! I cried. I just cried and cried. I recalled every single memory from the past and just cried.

He didn't hug me. He didn't hold me. He just looked at me with pity and pain. At dahil dun, lalo akong umiyak.

"You don't have to be afraid, Summer. Accidents happen and most of the times, there's no one to blame. I know it's hard not being able to know whose fault it was. But it's harder trying to find someone to blame, you know." 

"I'm...sorry..." and with that, I continued crying and whimpering like a baby. All this time, tama si Zayne. Takot lang ako. I was just afraid of being with the people from my tragic and scary past. 

Like what I said, I might act tough. I might be strong, but seeing blood--especially blood of a friend traumatized me greatly. I focused on the present to be able to forget about my past, but that made it worst. 

"Sana alam mo na na hindi mo pwedeng takbuhan ang nakaraan. Ang pwede mo lang gawin ay harapin mo kasabay ng ngayon." finally, he hugged me. 

I missed everything about him. His smell, his arms, the tightness of his hug...everything!

"Zayne, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." 

"Shhh. Iiyak mo lang, Summer."

"Sorry talaga. Masyado akong natakot. Masyado akong natakot sa possibility na maulit ang lahat...na mawala ulit lahat sakin...I'm sorry..."

"Okay lang, babe." napatigil ako sa pag-iyak at bumitaw ako sa yakap niya.

"Anong babe?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!" tinulak ko naman siya.

Tumawa lang siya ng tumawa. 

"Ang cute cute mo, Summer! As in sobra! Alam ko namang inaamoy amoy mo pa ko kanina eh! HAHAHAHAHA!"

"ZAYNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" 

"If you think just because this conversation happened na magbabalikan tayo, think again, smart-ass!" 

"HAHAHAHAHA YOU WERE JUST CUTE! YOU WERE SO FUNNY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"

Natawa din ako sakanya. For the first time in ages, we finally had this conversation. Kahit na hindi namin alam kung anong mangyayari samin ngayon, ang importante, nagkaliwanagan na kami.

"Nakakainis ka." sabay irap ko sakanya.

"I love you." I swear, naramdaman kong uminit ang mukha ko.

"I...love you too."

"HAHAHAHAHAHA! See? Mahal mo padin ako! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!" 

"ARGH!!!!!!!!"

NAKAKAINIS SIYA!