This is pt.2 Of the hook up one. I don't like this. I'll probably rewrite it so it's better.
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M: don't call him. Don't don't don't call him you don't need him. You don't need him Mattia. Fuck.
Mattia was pacing around his room, staring at his phone that was lying on his bed. He had been debating for the past half hour about whether or not he should call Kairi.
M: he doesn't want you like that. Just for sex. Just sex. Kairi doesn't want a relationship.
Mattia paced the room again. Running his hands through his hair.
M: Fuck! Why did I let this happen.
Mattia had slowly been catching feelings for Kairi for a while now but he kept pushing them away. Telling himself that it was nothing. But he didn't want to deny it anymore. Every time he thought about Kairi he got butterflies in stomach. Every time he thought about Kairi being with another person, the butterflies dropped dead.
M: dammit!
Mattia ran his hands through his hair once more before he picked up his phone, hitting Kairi's contact before he could stop himself. He held the phone to his ear as it rang, almost hoping that he wouldn't pick up.
K: hey Mattia
Mattia held his breath for a few seconds before slowly letting it out.
M: Kairi. Can you come over?
K: uh sure. Is everything ok?
M: yeah yeah. I-uh. I just need you.
K: ok. I'll be there in ten.
Mattia hung up, instantly regretting his choice to call Kairi. He put on a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt. He then paced around his kitchen until he heard a knock on the door. He took a deep breath before he opened the door.
K: what'd you miss me already?
Mattia found himself suddenly speechless and everything that he planned to say Kairi was suddenly gone from his mind.
K: are you ok Mattia? You're acting weird.
M: I-I-uh. I don't know how to say this.
K: oh.
Mattia took a few steps back, allowing Kairi to come further into his house.
K: are you ending this Mattia? Because I can go if you want-
M: -No! No don't go Kai.
K: oh. Then what's up? Why are acting weird?
M: Kairi-I-I have feelings for you.
Kairi took a step back at those words.
K: you what?
M: I don't want to be your friend with benefits or your hookup buddy anymore. I-uh. I wanna try and have a real relationship. And I know that's not the rules we agreed on but I don't know Kai. I really like you and-
K: Mattia stop.
Mattia's mouth snapped shut when he saw the look on Kairi's face.
K: Mattia we can't. I can't. I-. Mattia I'm sorry but I just don't...
M: no. It's ok Kairi. I uh. Forget I said anything. I shouldn't have said anything. We can still....you know... if you want to. I know that's what you came here for.
K: no. I should go. I-I don't think I can do this anymore Mattia.
M: oh.
Kairi turned and ran out of the room, leaving Mattia alone. As soon as he heard the front door shut, Mattia punched the closest thing next to him. He stared at the decent sized hole in the wall as tears started streaming down his face.
He had tried to be real with Kairi and instead he just lost him for good.
M: fuck.
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oNe WeEk LaTeR.......
Kairi hadn't spoken to Mattia in a week. His mind was still reeling from Mattia's confession of feelings. Sure he had considered being Mattia's boyfriend a few times but he never thought Mattia felt the same way.
K: I shouldn't have left.
Kairi lay on his bed like a starfish, talking to himself.
K: he likes me?
Kairi felt butterflies in his stomach when he thought of him and Mattia actually being a couple.
K: but relationships don't work. Relationships are hard and messy.
Kairi groaned in frustration as he ran his hands through his hair.
K: but I like him too, I think.
Kairi started thinking back to all the times he'd been with Mattia. They had learned small things about eachother through their hookups.
For example, Kairi had learned that Mattia could only sleep on the left side of the bed. And that he always put the water on his tooth brush before the toothpaste.
He had also learned that Mattia hated grapes (I don't think that's factual) and that he had a very extensive shoe collection.
K: oh man. I like him too.
Kairi then started thinking about all the things that the two of them could do together as a couple. All of the things that Mattia would be doing with someone else because Kairi had rejected him.
The thoughts made him sick to his stomach.
K: I want to be Mattia's boyfriend.
The realization hit Kairi instantly. And he sat up in shock.
K: I want to be Mattia's boyfriend!
He stood up and fixed his hair before running out the door to his car. He hit Mattia's contact name as he started driving. It rang for a while before it went to voicemail.
K: listen Mattia. I know you probably don't want to hear from me but I'm on my way to your house. I really need to talk to you.
Kairi hung up the voicemail as he continued to drive to Mattia's house, planning everything he was going to say.
He parked on the road in front of Mattia's house and ran up to the door, ringing the doorbell several times.
After a few minutes Mattia opened the door giving Kairi a sad look.
M: what're you doing here. If you're here for sex, I'm not interested.
Mattia started closing the door but Kairi quickly put his foot in the doorway, preventing it from closing.
K: no. I'm not here for sex. I-Mattia I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left. And-and I want to try to have a relationship too. And I'm sorry I didn't realize it sooner, I was just scared because I don't want to lose you. I don't want to lose you Mattia. Please forgive me and give me a second chance. I'm really sorry.
Mattia stared at Kairi for a moment with a bewildered expression. Kairi waited for him to say something but instead Mattia just shut the door in his face.
Kairi's heart dropped as he stared at the door.
K: he doesn't want me anymore?
Kairi sighed in defeat as he slowly turned to walk back to his car. He barely made it off the front porch before the door opened again and Mattia walked out.
M: Kairi wait.
Kairi turned around, full of hope.
M: c'mere.
Kairi walked back up the steps to where Mattia was standing. Mattia opened his arms and Kairi stepped into his embrace.
This was something new to both of them. Before it was just sex, but now there was something new.
Something warm and fuzzy. A little bit like love.
M: so we're gonna try this? Dating?
K: I want to. If you want to.
M: do you wanna come inside?
M: yes.
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The first part was better.
