PAINFUL LOVE (on hold)

BEGINNING

"What is wrong with me? Why do I feel the urge to go to her? Why is she crying? Arrgg..! Only if it rained heavily then I wouldn't have heard her crying!" Jungkook told to himself and got back on his bed, to distract his mind.

As for you, you were sobbing continuously in rain. You didn't know that this pleasent weather will bring you so pain, not cursing the rain but the circumstances.

Jungkook was rolling up in his bed, not able to divert his attention from you. Though his physical presence was in his room, on the bed specifically but his mind was wondering about you and about those secrets that you might be keeping inside.

"Shit! Get your ass out of here!" He mumbled and stood up to be with you.

His mind was wrecked with nervousness and hence he didn't bother to knock the door and rushed inside without you noticing. He kept his pace slow, trying to calm himself down before doing the same to you. Within few seconds he was standing in front of you and you looked up at him in shock and surprise.

"W..what are you d..doing here?" You asked stuttering.

"Um..I ca..why..I saw you crying from my balcony." He said while scratching the nape of his neck.

"Am I forbidden to cry? And why should you bother?" You said in a bit angry tone while wiping your years with the back of your hand.

"Y..you are distracting people around you! That's why I must bother! And why are you annoyed at me? I just came to help you."

"Did I ask for your help or support? I don't want to irritate any of you and that is why I spent time alone. You have already made me owe you a lot and I can't dare to put more pressure. If you think I was a disturbance, then I apologise. I won't cry here. I'll just stay in the room only, fine!" You let out the words from your mouth and started to walk back inside.

Just when you were about to leave, he grabbed your wrist and pulled you close to him. Your faces were only inches apart and his chest was heaving with a great force and you could sense it.

He saw your puffy eyes and stunned face. The sky was dark without any moon and yet he could see the shine hiding beneath your intricate face. The moment was beautiful yet anxious.

Once you realised the situation, you suddenly pushed him back, creating an appreciable space in between.

"What were you try-" you were cut off by his words "Sorry! Unintentional"

Noone spoke for a moment but then Jungkook decided to break the silence.

"Why were you crying?"

"Why should I tell you? It's my personal thing and-"

"I want to know you!"

Those words were like a thundering within your heart. When he said that, you felt a sudden rush of adrenaline through your body. Somehow it didn't bother you but calmed you senses. You felt like you should spill out everything as if this is the last time, last time when he will listen to you on his own. Your own thoughtful debate was contaminating you when he jerked your shoulders, bringing you out of your trance.

"I meant that...I thought wrong about you and hence kept being annoyed towards you. I thought that you aren't what you seem and you know..you had a special motive to come here and all. I just feel really sorry and it's okay if you don't want to talk." He was about to leave when you stopped him by holding his hands and soon removed them to avoid any awkwardness.

"No! You are right. I am not what I seem."

"Hm?"

"I'm not hiding anything but I've a dark past which isn't just a past. I mean..it's still bothering my present and who knows, future too!" You said while tears were brimming in your eyes.

It was strange how you suddenly started opening up to him. You didn't felt anything holding you back from doing it, rather it seemed as if everything was in support.

"I don't know why I don't feel reluctant to tell you everything but do you want to listen?"

"I want to listen, to you and to everything you want to say. I'm also unaware as to why I'm doing this but it feels right."

You both looked at each other and at that moment your tears cascaded down.

You crossed your hands on your chest and he kept them in his pocket. You started telling him everything from the beginning, about your mother getting married to an American and thus you shifting there. How you were daily treated at your home, everyday a painful day. About your bruises that were not only a physical mark on your skin but in your life as well. The pain that you suffered even if it wasn't your fault.

While you were enunciating, tears continued to fall down just like rain, gradually increasing.

The pain you suffered every day had became a part of your life. You told him all about your daily scoldings, beatings and verbal cursings and he stood there with pain in his heart. He was silent yet in full chaos seeing your drastic state.

"The reason why I came..no..ran away was something that was completely unacceptable."

"I'm listening, Y/N!"

Then you told him about you escaping from an evil situation, when your father tried to rape you. Upon hearing this, Jungkook was totally shook. He felt stinging pain that made him react with a painful sound. You were crying loudly with your hands covering your eyes.

When Jungkook was about to come near you, you continued your story. And he held back his tears from falling and his steps from approaching you.

Every single detail was being presented to him and you had no regrets. Lastly you confessed about the phone call you had with Rose, which was the reason behind you crying.

Now that was already more than enough to be tolerated. Jungkook felt worse seeing you this much tormented. His mind wasn't in his control now and he took steps towards you engulfing you in his warm and comfortable hug.

You were surprised but you threw your guards down and hugged him back while crying hard. But now, even the rain had turned harsh. It was a heavy downpour and so your sobbing couldn't be heard by anyone but Jungkook.

Few minutes had passed and now your sobbing had reduced. You separated from the hug but he held you close to him. His hands crept up to your face and cupped it. You were both looking at each other intensly and the rain was still pouring. Without any further thoughts he inched closer to your face and kissed you.

Still in the moment, you didn't push him away and kissed him back.

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😅😅They kissed finally!!

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