The Problem With Musicians

Chapter 14

I cried.

I cried when Nikki and Taylor came in.

I cried when I tried to tell them what was wrong.

I cried in the shower, trying to wash the night away.

I cried myself to sleep.

I cried when I woke up in the morning and realized Jake never called or texted, trying to explain.

It was lucky that it was a Sunday, allowing me a day to compose myself until I had to face Jake and Miranda.

"It's okay Wish, just wait. Jake will be coming to the door any minute begging for forgiveness" Nikki cooed while rubbing my back. I wiped my eyes and threw a tissue at the trash can that was already overflowing. We all knew Nikki's words were empty. Jake was not coming. He had moved on.

Taylor hadn't been saying much, just staring down at her phone and occasionally tapping the screen. Mike. A half hour into our movie day she threw down her phone in frustration and said "That bastard." I knew immediately she was talking about Jake and not Mike.

When my eyes could drip no more, I had laid in my bed in silence, listening to the sounds of the night, which included Nikki and Taylor's soft voices. They were talking about Jake, me, and their night. Before they had found out what had happened with me, everything was perfect.

Mike and Jordan refused to look at or dance with any other girls.

I was glad for my friends, I really was. I just wished that I could've had their kind of night with Jake. What had I done? Had he been planning that ever since asking me? Was he setting me up? I shook my head, getting up and shuffling over to the bathroom. I got in there and just sat on the counter. I stared at my reflection, thinking back to when I would do this when my parents would fight.

I sighed. I knew that in one simple night, Miranda had ruined a special part in my life. I thought back to the day that I told Jake about my family. About the problems in the past, everything. What if he told Miranda? I wanted to know that I could trust him not to, but then again, I thought I could trust him to stay with me.

And look how that turned out.

Without thinking twice I hopped down, went out of the bathroom to my closet and grabbed a sweatshirt and boots. I knew of one place that I could go, the one place that no one really understood why I would go there.

I was going into the woods.

Most of the students stayed in the commons, which the woods surrounded, but I had always ventured into them. I enjoyed the feeling, of almost being lost, but knowing that I could get out. No one else knew of the small clearing that I had found, a waterfall included. The trees weren't dense so sunlight could easily filter through onto the floor, causing the water to sparkle and shimmer.

 I could stay there for hours.

I grabbed my phone without saying anything to Nikki or Taylor and walked out of the room. They would understand. I always went there whenever I was having problems or a bad day. I navigated the halls quickly, making my journey a bit longer to avoid the wing with the band room. I knew if I went even nearby, I would break down.

I reached the front door without meeting anyone, and opened the door to be met by sun on my face and a gentle breeze causing my hair to tickle my neck. I smiled, these were perfect conditions to go where I was. There were a few people mulling about the commons, none that bothered though. I headed straight toward the broken tree, side stepping a branch, then heading east.

I reached my sacred spot. I brushed a few leaves off a log and sat, staring at the water. I could be here for hours, not thinking, not moving, just sitting. It was peaceful. Serence. People would disagree, the wind moved the leaves too much, and the water from the stream gurgled too loudly. Whenever I heard them say something like that, I shook my head and brushed it off.

Everyone finds their peace somewhere.

And this is where I found mine.

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Hours later, I finally emerged from the woods. Chilled to the bones, but calm. I started towards the dining hall, where I heard chattering and the clinking of cultery. I stepped into the hall and looked around quickly, finding Nikki and Taylor in our usual spot, joined by Mike and Jordan. I walked up to them, so relaxed I didn't really care who I was with.

I was just hungry.

I slid in next to Taylor, who quickly shed her jacket and placed it around my shoulders. "You must be crazy! You've been out there for six hours."  Nikki lectured me. "I know you were out there in your little peaceful place, but the occasion text would be nice!" I giggled at my friend, probably the first time I laughed in probably twenty four hours.

Taylor and Nikki looked shocked but MIke and Jordan smiled and acted as if it was not a big deal. I shrugged and scooped some mashed potatoes onto my plate and added some gravy. I ate slowly, not saying much, just listening to the rest of the group chat. Once I finished eating, I didn't feel like getting up, accidentatly letting my eyes wander.

Of course, the first two people they find are Jake and Miranda. All snuggled up against each other. God. Had I been that pathetic with him? No, the main time we had cuddled was when we were well hidden away in the band room.

I got up suddenly, knowing that if I stayed, I would keep looking at them, punishing myself.

I will be stronger.

I will not sink to Miranda's level.

I will win this.

I headed out, my head held high, my hips swaying, very well knowing a few heads were turned. Good. Let them look. It's not like I am taken anymore.

I smiled then, a small smile, a sad smile. Yet still, a real smile.

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