Hurts so Good [✓]

CHAPTER 7

Chapter 7

Hurts so Good

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Savi.

One moment, you feel happy in his arms but then in the end you will wake up and realize that it's just a dream. A sweet dream that is opposite of reality.

"Open the goddamn door, Savi!" rinig kong sigaw ni Lux mula sa labas ng kuwarto ko. I closed my eyes as a tear escaped from it again.

Napahagulgol na lamang ako bigla at napahawak sa dibdib ko. Sobrang sikip na at hindi ako makahinga. Simula nang sunduin ako ni Rion at ihatid sa bahay kahapon ay hindi na ako lumabas ng kuwarto ko at umiyak na lang ng umiyak. I'm breaking down.

Flashback...

"I'm here, Savi. Sorry I'm late." Rion said as I my hug for him become tighter.

"U-uwi na tayo. Gusto ko ng umuwi." Hinang-hina na sabi ko. I feel so pathetic. Bakas sa mukha ni Rion ang pag-aalala. Ngayon lang niya ako nakitang ganito. Siguro pagkatapos nito ay hindi ko alam kung magpapakita pa muna ako ulit sa kaniya dahil nakakahiya para sa akin na makita niya ako sa pinaka-worst na sitwasiyon.

"Damn it. Gagong, Deus talaga." Mariin niyang sabi habang inaalalayan ako papasok ng kotse niya.

"I'll call Taylor to drive your car to you home. Here, drink this." He said as he handed me a bottle of water. He opened it for me.

"Thank you." I said.

Sobrang tahimik ng bahay ng dumating ako. Lux isn't home since he's at work. Mom and Dad are both out. Mom is helping Tito JP while Dad is outside of the country.

I've managed to get inside my room and burried my face to my bed. My tears are unstoppable. My hearts keeps on aching and my whole body feels so weak.

Dumating ang gabi at may kumatok na katulong para ayain akong kumain ng dinner pero hindi ko ito sinagot. Sunod-sunod din na katok mula kay Lux ang narinig ko ng dumating ang madaling araw but still I haven't open the door for the,. I even turned off my phone so no one will be able to reach me.

Pagod na pagod na ang pakiramdam ko pero iyong sakit hindi nawawala. Iyong luha ko tuloy-tuloy lang kahit na mahapdi na ang mga mata ko sa kakaiyak.

Rinig ko ang malakas na pagkakabukas ng pintuan ng kuwarto ko. The next thing I knew is Lux pulling my blanket as I saw his worried face turned into anger after seeing me.

"The fvck, Savi?! You've been crying out for almost a day without eating any meals nor drinking a water! Nagpapakamatay ka na ba para kay Deus?!" Galit na galit na tanong niya sa akin pero nanghihina kong binawi ang kumot ko sa kaniya ngunit marahas niya itong hinila palayo sa akin.

"STOP CRYING ALREADY, CAN'T YOU?!"

Mas lalo akong napaiyak nang sinabi ni Lux iyon. Nanlambot ang ekspresyon niya at napabuntong-hiningang niyakap ako at ibinaon ko ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya. Ramdam ko kung gaano kabigat ang paghinga ni Lux at ang pigil na pigil na galit nito.

"I'm so fvcking mad right now, Savi. I can't calm down knowing you're hurting. I'm sorry." Malambing niyang sabi habang marahan na hinihimas ang likuran ko.

"L-Lux, ang sakit-sakit na." I cried.

"I know. I'm aware of it. Ang tigas kasi ng ulo mo eh." Aniya ngunit sa tonong nakakagaan ng pakiramdam.

"Savi, promise me that this will be the last." Seryoso niyang sabi sa akin.

Napalunok ako sa sinabi niya. Kaya ko ba? Humigpit lalo ang pagkakayakap ko kay Lux.

"This will be the last, Savi. No one will make our family's little demon cry again. I won't let it. I'm your twin and I'll protect you even that means killing my old friend."

Sa sinabi niyang iyon ay unti-unti ng gumaan kahit papaano ang nararamdaman ko. Lux made me feel that things will going to be alright. All this time I've been relying to him. He's my human pillow, a handkerchief and my real knight aside from Dad. I can't imagine my life without Lux to back me up on every troubles.

"Dad wants to talk to you, Savi. Mom and Dad are also worried about you."

Nakaramdam ako ng konsensiya. Simula ng magkasagutan kami ni Mommy ay hindi na kami gaanong nagpansinan sa bahay. I'm assuming that she's mad about it.

"Galit ba sila sa akin?"

Umiling si Lux bago humiwalay mula sa pagkakayakap naming dalawa. He cupped my face then smiled.

"They aren't mad. They love you so much. They are just worried. Wake up, Savi. The world is bigger and you will find the right man for you just like how Mom found our Dad."

Sumilay ang maliit na ngiti sa labi ko. Maybe my love story is like my Mom's story. Maybe there's a man like Dad who will be able to complete me and my broken heart again. If I ever found him, would he be able to accept me? Do I still deserve a man like him? I've already given my all to Deus and I'm left with a broken heart.

"Deus said that he hates me. He wants us to become stranger." Halos hirap na sabi ko kay Lux.

"Then start hating him too. Prove them how strong you are again. You are Savi Hannah Labrusca not just Savi whose been weakened by love and a Labrusca has a strong personality and that will remain through the next generations of our blood."

Napalabi ako at ginulo ni Lux iyong buhok ko. I forgot about who I am whenever I thought about Vius.

"You're pretty, genius and talented. You have the face and the looks. Guys out there are drooling over you. You don't have to be stucked with man who doesn't see you that way and treat you without respect. I want a good man for you, Savi."

Unti-unti kong isiniksik ang sinabi ni Lux sa utak ko hanggang sa bumangon ang kakaibang pakiramdam sa akin.

"Savi, I know you'll be fine. Take your time. Wounds doesn't heal that fast but after you recieve a scar, use that as a reminder to guard your heart next time.." Huling sabi ni Lux.

"Tell Mom and Dad to let me cry for the death of stupid Savi Labrusca."

Natawa nang mahina si Lux.

"My twin is not stupid, she's just blinded by her feelings towards the person she loves."

Kumibot ang labi ko sa sinabi ni Lux.

"Is this your way of comforting the Labrusca's Princess?"

Umiling siya. "No, this is my way of showing my love for you as a brother."

Sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon ay sumilay ang ngiti sa labi ko.

I'll be fine, Lux. I'm going to become stronger, Mom and Dad.