Behind The Lies | yoonmin

CHAPTER 17

CHAPTER 17:

With flower bouquet on one hand and a heavy heart, I started walking to Yoongi's grave.

May mga oras talaga na kusa na lang lumalabas yung katotohanan na hindi natin alam nasa saatin pala. Ang ginusto ko lang naman mangyari nung bumalik ako rito sa Korea ay para makilala si Jimin at iparamdam na mahal siya ng kapatid ko.

Na mahal siya ni Yoongi. Pero hindi ko inasahan na mahuhulog din pala ako.

I stopped in front of Yoongi's tombstone, "Hello, Yoongi. It's been a while." I said as I put down the flowers and sat in front of him.

Where do I even begin? Paano ko sasabihin sa kapatid ko ngayon na mahal ko na rin yung taong minahal niya higit pa sa kahit kanino?

Kung buhay siguro si Yoongi, hindi lang sapak ang inabot ko. It will cost us our brotherly relationship. Masisira kaming dalawa. Yoongi will hate me for that.

"I know you're watching Jimin and I from heaven, and look disappointed with what's going on." I started, "You also might think, I'm such an asshole for falling in love with your greatest love. Believe me, I know I'm an asshole."

Huminga ako ng malalim, "I just wish you're alive today and you get to experience how much Jimin loves you while I'm back in New York, probably still with Gabrielle and walking on runways."

"If you are alive, I know you'd be happy living your best life with Jimin." A smile formed in my lips as I picture Yoongi and Jimin together, "But that's not gonna happen anymore."

I touch Yoongi's name imbedded in his tombstone, "I love you with all my heart and I'm deeply sorry for falling for him, I do."

"Which is why, I'm going to tell him the truth." I heave out a heavy sigh. Hindi ko na kaya.

Jimin is meant to be with Yoongi, not some fake version of him. He deserves better than that. I'm falling in love with him but I need to stop. Hindi ko na pwedeng ipagpatuloy pa 'to.

The times we spent together is enough for him to actually realize how much Yoongi loves him.

"Jimin deserves you. Not me. Not the liar, manipulative fake version of you." Sabi ko kay Yoongi bago ako huminga ng malalim.

Ilang minuto rin akong nagstay sa tabi ni Yoongi bago ako pumasok sa school. Tapos na yung klase at hindi ako nakapasok dahil binisita ko si Yoongi. Iniiwasan ko rin si Jimin dahil naaalala ko lang yung sinabi ko kay Alys.

Na mahal ko si Jimin.

God, I'm an asshole and stupid. Ang sama kong kapatid!

Pagdating ko sa school, pumunta agad ako sa classroom para tignan kung nagstay ba sila sa room. Minsan kasi tumatambay pa sila pagkatapos ng klase, akala mo high school pa rin. Pumunta rin ako sa library para silipin kung nandito ba si Jimin pero wala rin siya.

"Where the hell are you?" Tanong ko sa hangin habang naglalakad lakad sa school. Kinuha ko yung phone ni Yoongi para sana itext si Jimin kaso naalala kong sinira nga pala yung phone niya.

That fucking photographer.

Tinignan ko yung contacts ni Yoongi at nakita ko yung pangalan na "Seokjin ni Namjoon". Right, tropa niya itong si Seokjin. Maybe I should text him.

To: Seokjin ni Namjoon

Hi, hyung. Alam mo ba kung nasan si Jimin? Yoongi 'to. Thanks.