Family (A Dan Howell Fic)

.:Children:.

I woke up in a hospital. It looked like A&E but I wasn't sure. I looked over and scanned the room. My things were on the chair. I remembered everything that happened. I can't believe what happened. I was... I can't even say it to myself. I just thought. How did I let that happen. Who was he? An actual friend of PJ's?

Phil said he would guard the door, but how did he get in? I just don't want to even think about it. I want to think positively. 

Who am I kidding. A good week turned bad so quickly. I sat up and I didn't feel pain at all. Why was I here?

Dan and Phil and a few other people were out in the hall. I tried to catch someones eye. Soon Dan saw me and ran in, followed by Phil, and PJ.

"Oh my god, I'm so glad you're ok." He hugged me and kissed my forehead.

I didn't know what to say to him. Was I supposed to talk about last night? I was curious, but it was a bad memory.

"Dan." I said after a few seconds.

"Hi, are you feeling better?"

"What happened? All I can remember is..." I really didn't want to say it.

"I know." He started to tear. "We were in the other room, and Phil heard you. The man crashed the party and he was arrested." He was crying. I was red, but I kept it in.

"I will never leave you ever again. I-I love you Alyssa."

Phil and PJ were tearing too. Dan got off of me. I'll be in the hall, I need to calm down.

"Alyssa, I'm so sorry." PJ started.

"It wasn't your fault, PJ." I gave him a big hug and went to comfort Dan who was sobbing in the hall. He left Phil and I alone.

"Do you want to talk?" He knew I did.

"Yes, I need to talk to you. Thank you so much. I don't know what would have happened without you. But why did you let him in?"

"He said he left something in there. I would never put you in harm on purpose. You're my little sister." He held my hand.

"What do we do now?"

"We need to wait for the results."

"Results?"

"Yea, since, erm, last night. They needed to have a pregnancy test done. They also needed to get your information from the other hospital."

I looked down at my hands.

"Hey, It will be ok. We spoke in the hall. Dan and I will help you 100% of the way."

"It's not that." I had a secret that only my mum knew.

"What?"

"I beat cancer when I was 14."

"That's amazing."

"Yea." I smirked.

"I had chemo many times, Phil." He looked concerned. "Dan was talking about having children one day. I can't have children. I thought it wouldn't come up, but now it has to. the doctor is going to come in and tell him. I love him." Phil smiled. 

"I need to get one more thing off my chest, but you can't tell Dan, he would break."

"Anything, Aly."

I took a deep breath. "He...he took my virginity, Phil." Phil grew serious.

"No." he said. I started to cry. Yes.

"Alyssa Burr, I am so sorry. I shouldn't have left him there with you."

He whispered to himself. "So stupid!"

"No, you didn't know. I don't balme anyone else but him."

The doctor came in and greeted me, then left. He didn't say anything of importance. I told Phil to call Dan in.

He sat in the chair silently, his hands on his face. I took one of them and held it tight.

"What did the doctor say..about the test."

"He didn't. Dan, I need to tell you something."

"What?"

"I know you wanted kids someday."

"It doesn't matter, then or now, I will help you."

"I can't have children, Dan. I wanted to tell you this morning. I just couldn't. I wouldn't balme you if you left me." I tried not to cry.

"Alyssa, I would never leave you. I love you."

"But, I can't have a family."

"Alyssa, we are your family."

I smiled. "I love you too, Dan." he gave me a big hug and he kissed me.

"I'm going to pull the car around. The doctor said you can go home now." Phil said as he came in.

"I'll go too, get ready." He kissed me again, wiping his tears afterwards.

PJ walked past them. "He took your virginity?" Phil had obviously told him.

"Yea." I nodded.

"I know I've only known you a short time, but I'm so sorry his happened. What they had told me about you is phenominal. No wonder they love you so much."

"Thank you."

"I just needed to tell you. I didn't want to walk out like I didn't care. Do you want me to help you out?"

"No, I've got it."

"Ok, remember, I owe you a favor." He smiled and left.

I got my things and met them is the car.

I've never had this many people care about me. It wasn't alot, but it was enough.

The ride home was silent, when we gt back, I just layed in the office and thought. I couldn't believe my life. It was too hectic. I just wanted peace. I wanted to go back home, with my mum. Live a simple life. 

Dan loves me, Phil loves me. They are the only two people in the world that mattered. Most importantly, I love them.

I told them a big secret today. I wasn't going to tell anyone about my cancer, and my children. But I promised myself, I'll never tell them one thing.