Remember Humanity

Chapter 16

"I can't believe you asked her that!" I scolded Liam. Dr. Green had left about ten minutes ago. Liam and I were now at our house sitting on the couch that was in front of our medium sized television.

"Don't act like you haven't thought of it," he replied flatly.

"Not while I was looking at our baby!" I retorted. Liam cocked his head to the side and gave me an unbelieving glare.

"We had a limited amount of time and I wanted to know... and from the way you were looking at me in the barn tells me that you wanted to know too," he said with a smirk. My eyes widened and my jaw dropped slightly.

I glared at him. It was true... but he didn't need to know that. "Again not while looking at my baby," I said with some harshness to my tone.

Liam's smile reappeared as he realized that's the only argument I had. He leaned in so close that I could feel his breath on my neck.

"You're not giving me a real argument about the actual question Ava-tar," he said and placed a light kiss on my neck.
Feeling shivers run through my body. My mind was having a hard time remembering what I was angry about. Liam put his rough hand on the small of my back and pulled me somehow closer.

He had such an effect on me I almost forgot what we had been talking about... almost.

Suddenly flares of anger returned. I pushed him off of me and stood up.

"You were thinking of sex while we were looking at our baby for the first time," I said harshly.

Liam seemed a bit stunned, like he hadn't processed that I had willingly left his arms. Trust me a part of me feels the same. A very small part though.

"I guess I'm the only one out of the two of us that truly loves our child!" I let my venom words leak out before I could take it back. I turned away from him and went to our room.

Once in our room I quickly grabbed a change of clothes and went to the shower. Wanting to just go to bed and let my anger fully die out I rushed through the shower. Not truly enjoying its hot relief.

I pulled on the clothes I had brought in with me and groaned. I forgot bottoms! All I had was underwear and a shirt. Stupid Ava!

Throwing the door of the bathroom open I stopped short at the sight of Liam on our bed. Liam looked sad and slightly shocked. His eyes were set on the floor and his hair was a mess. He had no shirt, which usually would greatly add to his attractiveness, but for some reason it just seemed to add to his despaired state.

Slowly I walked over to him. I placed my hand on his warm bare shoulder and he looked up at me. His eyes were slightly tinged red. I felt my heart clench.

"I do love our baby," he said in a small breathy voice. My mind went back to the cruel words I had said. Why did I say such a petty and terrible thing?

This is all my fault. I need to stop lashing out at him verbally when I'm losing an argument. Who wins doesn't matter if it has this affect. When we had been kids I'd yell at him nonstop but I didn't love him then. I didn't know how much I could hurt him then.

"I know you do. I'm sorry! I never should have said that. I don't know what came over me," I said lovingly, trying to undo my damaging words. All of my anger melted away and all I felt was regret.

Liam pulled me against his warm chest and held me tightly.

"I love you so much. I wish I could take back my terrible words. I know you. I know that you could never not love your child," I whispered.

Liam's grip loosened for a bit and he looked down at me meeting my eyes.
"I love you too, and you're right. I could never not love my child. I just... I don't know. I used to see so many other guys in my mechanic classes that had gone super crazy because their dad left," Liam admitted to me, " some of them would excuse their actions with it. I don't want my children to feel like they have to act out and ruin their life just because of me." He let out a deep breath and seemed to relax. Liam seemed better after admitting his thoughts.

"And they won't," I said placing my hand on his right cheek. He placed his hand over mine and held it there.

"Yeah they won't. Because I'm not going anywhere," he said pressing his forehead against mine.

He's so much better than me. I can't believe I got lucky enough to have him.

"Why are you with me? You're so much better than I am," I said.

Liam smiled and answered with, "Well my dear Ava-tar, I'm with you because I fell in love with the girl that seems to know everything, loves frosting more than any healthy person should, is so loyal that she won't tattle on you even if you ruined the ending to her new show, and is so beautiful that it's hard to focus on things when she isn't wearing any type of cover on her legs."

I smiled. Now I remember. Not from the nice things he said but from his legs comment. He's a total goofball mixed with teenage hormones.

I let out a laugh as I watched Liam check out my legs very obviously and rather funnily.

"Lets put that question into some use?" Liam tried to say it as a statement but it came out  as a question. I laughed again and could feel his warm rough hand on the bare skin of my right leg. My thoughts fuzzed as his hand went up and down on my thigh.

"Looks like you're okay with that," he whispered in my ear.

Wow that was hot. I looked at him and nodded quickly.