Pain and Despair

Betrayal

A/n I haven't updated in like a week. I certainly didn't have any hope for this story, but looks like some people have read it. So fuck it imma keep going with the story.

Naruto's Dream

"Your a disaster! You shouldn't have been born. I don't know what I was thinking of having a child. Your cursed! Your mother died giving birth to you! You ungrateful fuck!"

"What? What are you talking about dad?"

"Your a demon! Your mother was so happy on having a kid and that's how you repay her?! You ungrateful son of a bitch! You killed her! You killed my Kushina!!"

"Dad, your just drunk again. You don't mean it"

"No, I meant every single thing! Your the devil's child."

"Dad, just rest, your exhausted, here come on I'll help you to the room"

"DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE TOUCH ME YOU DEMON!"

"Dad calm down please!"

"Oh please, stop the fake tears, demons don't cry, your heartless. Matter fact. Come here, I wanna decorate that pretty face of yours!"

"Dad, put that knife away. Your just tired!"

"Now let's put some whiskers on this demon!"

"DAD! NO! STOP!"

Third Pov

"DAD!", screamed Naruto waking up from his terrible dream.

The door opens revealing a worried Gaara. Gaara walks towards Naruto.

"Naruto are you ok?!"

"Hmm?"

"Are you ok?"

"Um yeah"

"You sure?"

"Yeah just a bad dream!"

"Anything, talk to me ok?"

"Yeah I know, what time is it?"

"It's one."

"Alright imma take a shower."

"Ok, remember we meet up with them at 3pm"

"Yeah I know", Naruto let's out a sigh.

"Ok, you hungry?"

"Nah I'm good"

"You didn't eat your cereal in the morning, you have to eat something"

Naruto sighs, "Fine, imma eat something after I shower"

"Good boy!", exclaims Gaara as he ruffles Naruto's hair.
Gaara walks out of the room, leaving Naruto alone.

Naruto let's out yet another sigh.

"What a dream. Well it's not even a dream, it's just bad memories" Thought Naruto.

Naruto walks over to the bathroom, and looks himself in the mirror.

"Ah yes, how can I forget these decorations on my face? They hurt like hell when I got them. I look like a fox. Why? Why dad? I didn't kill mom. Why would you think I did?" Thought Naruto.

Suddenly, while looking at himself in the mirror Naruto feels a grip on his throat. Leading him to have trouble breathing. Naruto closes and opens his eyes, trying to control his breathing.

Naruto remembers,
"That night, that damn night! Why me?! Why did I have to get robbed of my innocence. I was four years old for fucks sake!"

Naruto looks over at a bag on the sink. Naruto reaches for the bag, and grabs a razor blade, and proceeds to cut himself.

With every cut he feels alive.
With every cut he feels ecstatic.
With every cut he feels happy.
With every cut he feels betrayal.

What he's actually feeling is pain. Pure pain. Not just pain. But despair. Both pain and despair.

Naruto stops cutting himself, and turns on the shower. Naruto steps in and let's the cool water fall on his damaged body. He can feel the water falling on his cut wrist. He can feel the blood being washed away.

Washed away from his damaged body.

He can feel the cool water falling on the scars in his chest.

The scars on his damaged body.

Why did it have to be him? All the damage? All the hurt? All the pain? Why him?

But yet. Even after all the damage, after all the hurt, after all the pain. He still loves his body.

It's his.

Naruto hops out the shower. Cleans the bloody blade. And goes into his room to change.

Naruto takes out a Riot Society hoodie, with black ripped jeans, and white air forces. Naruto then walks in the kitchen, and sees Gaara placing his food on the table.

"Thanks for the food bro"

"Yeah no problem", says Gaara suspicious.

"Aye Naruto, show me your wrists"

"W-what?"

"Show. Me. Your. Wrists.", said Gaara with a serious tone.

Naruto then shows Gaara his left wrist, the wrist that isn't cut.

"Ok, now show me your other wrist", Gaara said with a demanding voice.

Naruto complied, and shamefully showed Gaara his right wrist.

" Naruto....", said Gaara in a sad soft voice.

"You said you'd stop"

"S-sorry Gaara"

"Naruto, I know it's hard but, if you feel like cutting yourself, just come to me. I'm always here!"

"Yeah I know Gaara."

Gaara walks to Naruto's bathroom and gets his bag. Gaara walks back in the kitchen and throws the whole bag out the window.

"No more cutting Naruto. If I stopped, that means you can stop. I have faith in you Naruto. Your strong", said Gaara in a reassuring voice.

"Ok now eat up!"

Naruto proceeds to eat the eggs that Gaara cooked for him. And ate them fast. Naruto gets up, and washes the dish.

"Ok so what time is it?", asked Naruto.

" Since you decided to take your sweet time showering and dressing, it's almost time. So let's go!"

"Oh, ok, just let me get my phone and headphones."

"Bet"

Naruto walks to his bedroom, and grabs his phone, wallet, and headphones. Although he wouldn't admit it, Naruto was looking forward to meeting new people.

Naruto then walks out of his apartment with Gaara.
They both walk in silence.

Naruto decided to slip on his headphones, and play 'Calligraphy' by Saba.

"I hope I fit in with them. Will I be weird?", worried Naruto, but let the calm beat of the song put him at ease.

A/n sorry for the long ass chapter. But I just felt like typing what was in my heart lol. Well, if y'all want to listen to the song Naruto was hearing to, it's at the top lmao. And please, vote and comment if I should go on. Be safe y'all ❤.