𝕚𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤 [𝕕𝕪𝕝𝕒𝕟 𝕠'𝕓𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟]

i love you.

[dylan o'brien]

I love you

I walked away from the trailers on set, getting ready for the next scene. I am an assistant for an actor.

I love you

He called my name and when I turned around I bumped right into him, getting coffee all over us. I quickly apologize and try to gather myself. I look up and find he's already staring at me with those beautiful honey amber eyes.

I love you

I lay in his bed, while he wraps his arms around me and falls into a deep sleep. I stay awake knowing it's wrong but not turning away from it.

I love you

I try to talk to him, but he pretends he doesn't care. I know he does. Again, I walked to set for the next scene.

I love you

He's impossible. I cant get him to understand. He doesn't want this. I knew this was a bad idea. I walked away. I still get butterflies when he calls my name.

I love you

I lay in his bed once more, hating myself for wanting to. He doesn't care, he never had. It's not fair. I know it's not worth it.

I love you

'Please listen to me. I cant do this anymore. I cant sleep in your bed if you just continue to mess with my head. It's not fair. I'm better than this'

I love you

I quit my job. I cant stand him.

I love you

He's everywhere I go. He hovers over my dreams like a dark cloud that never leaves. I hate myself for still thinking-

I love you

I go to the award ceremony he's at. stupid. I don't need to be here. I don't know why I'm here.

I love you

He wins. Of course he does. He gives his speech. As he walks off stage I finally say it out loud-

'I love you. but i fucking hate you for it'