Jay had been blowing my phone up for the past few days. I'd been trying to do right by Micheal and leave him alone, but he was making things too hard. After I ran into him and his family at the zoo, I decided that I was done with him for good, but just like every other time, Jay had ways of making me change my mind. Four days after that incident, we ended up picking up right where we left off. He was happy about us reconnecting, but I was having second thoughts the moment it started again. I still had feelings for Jay, but they were lust and not love. I was really in love with Micheal. If I had to choose between the two, Jay wouldn't stand a chance. Lately, Micheal and I haven't been in the best place with our relationship, but we were working hard to get it back on track. He's been questioning me a lot lately and I really think he was becoming suspicious. That was the reason I've been putting Jay on the back burner lately. I wasn't trying to make matters worse with me and my man so Jay had to wait until I was able to make time for him. He was having a fit, but I didn't give a damn. Micheal was working hard to make earlier appointments so that we could spend some much needed time together. Things we're going well for the first few days, but he was back to becoming suspicious again. He never came right out and asked, but I could that he had doubts just by some of the things he said. Then, to make matters worse, Micheal and his dad had to attend a two day seminar in Houston, Texas. I waited for him to ask me to join them, but the invite never came. "Girl I really needed this," Kelly said as she placed her feet in the warm water. We were both at a local nail salon getting pedicures. "I did too," I said, agreeing with Kelly. “I’m so aggravated with Micheal right now.” “I don’t know why you’re so mad about him not inviting you out of town. You have class so you probably couldn’t go anyway,” Kelly said. “That’s not the point. He didn’t even ask. I could have made arrangements for school,” I replied. “Y’all need a vacation. Just get away and have some alone time,” Kelly suggested. "I don’t know, I'm stressed the hell out," I complained. "We did say no more secrets right?" Kelly asked looking at me. "Why, are you hiding something else from me?" "No, but I have to be honest with you," Kelly replied. "Ok, I'm listening.” "You're stressed out because you're trying to please two men at the same time. You need to let Jay go for good and be with Micheal if that's who you really want to be with. I don't see this turning out good at all," Kelly said sincerely. "I do want to be with Micheal, but you know Jay is not just going to just go away," I said in my own defense. "No he's not, because you're entertaining him. You're doing my cousin the same way he's doing his wife and it's not going to turn out good.” I was listening because Kelly had some very good points, but the situations were different. "No I'm not. Unlike Jay, I want to be with Micheal. Jay just doesn't want to be married anymore.” "Ok, so why isn't he divorced? That's bullshit. He's keeping her around for a reason, but she’s going to get really tired one day. A person can only take so much. I'm scared for you more than anything," Kelly said seriously. "I'm not worried about Courtney's crazy ass. If anything she'll do something to him before she would me. He's the one that married her dumb ass," I said. "That girl is crazy. She faults you for everything that happened with her husband so don't think she wouldn't come after you before she goes after Jay," Kelly said looking at me. "I know. I really have to end this with Jay. I feel like I have much more to lose than Jay does and it's not even worth it.” That was so true. I would die if Micheal found out that I was still messing with Jay, especially since I swore that it was over between us. "Well I've said what was on my mind. I just don't trust Jay at all," Kelly responded, “He’ll do anything for you to be with him. Just be careful is all I’m saying.” “I will,” I said. I heard her loud and clear. Hearing was never my issue, it was listening that gave me the most problems. After our trip to the nail salon, I headed straight to Micheal's house. He would be leaving tomorrow and I wasn't going to see him for the entire weekend. I wanted to spend some time with him before he left. Not wanting to be alone, I made plans to spend the weekend with Kelly at her house. "Hey boo," I said when I walked into Micheal house. He was stretched out on the sofa watching TV. I walked over to him, giving him a peck on his lips. "What you been up to today?" He asked, while pulling me down on top of him. "Nothing, I just came from the nail salon with Kelly," I replied. We laid on the sofa in silence for over an hour watching reruns of Martin until Micheal initiated a conversation. "Are you happy?" He asked out of the blue. The question caught me of guard, but I answered truthfully, "I'm very happy, are you?" I asked in return. "Yeah, I'm happy," he replied. He was quiet for a while, but more questions came soon after his brief silence. "If you weren't happy would you tell me?" He asked. "Yes I would tell you Micheal. Where is all of this coming from?" I wanted to know. "I'm just asking. I just want to make sure I'm doing what I'm supposed to do to make you happy. If you're not happy with me then you'll start to look elsewhere and I don't want that to happen," he said. "That's not going to happen," I replied. I felt like shit and for good reason. Micheal was a good man and I didn't have a valid reason to cheat on him. It really was only about the sex with Jay, but it wasn't like Micheal wasn't putting it down just as good, maybe even better. Our sex life was damn good and I didn't have any complaints. Since he's been coming in early for the past few nights we've been making up for lost time. "If this is not what you want just let me know. I don't want to keep you if you don't want to be kept," he said surprising me. "I don't understand where all of this is coming from. You're not forcing me to be here. I'm here because I love you and this is where I want to be," I replied looking him in his eyes. "I love you too. Please don't make me regret it.” That last comment sealed the deal. This weekend while Micheal was out of town working, I would be working on ending whatever it was that I had with Jay. The risk was just too great. Micheal and I shared a long kiss right before he picked me up and carried me up the stairs. Starting tonight, he was the only man that I would be sharing my body with. The next morning I got up extra early to make sure Micheal had packed everything he needed. I was still tired since we stayed up until after two. Micheal sex drive was most definitely out of control. It was Friday so I only had one class at eleven. I also had a three hour class on Saturday, which is probably the reason he didn't ask me to join him on the trip in the first place. Micheal was very serious about school so skipping class was not happening. Once I made sure he had everything he needed, I got dressed and prepared to leave out the door at the same time he was leaving. Kelly and I were going to have breakfast with the twins before it was time for me to go to school. "You sure you don't want to stay here until I get back?" He asked for the hundredth time. "No, I told you that I was staying with Kelly. I don't want to be in here bored for the whole weekend," I answered. We walked out the door together and prepared to go our separate ways. After putting his bags in the car, Micheal lifted me off my feet in a tight embrace. After sharing a long kiss, he pulled himself away and got in his car. I hopped in mine as well and headed to breakfast with my girls.
*****
Later on Friday night, Kelly and I sat around in her living room and pigged out on junk food all night, while watching movies. Micheal called to let me know that he and his dad had made it to Texas safely and I was happy to hear that. He was tired from driving all day so he promised to call me on Saturday evening once they were done with all of their meetings. “Is that your stalker calling you again?” Kelly asked laughing. Jay had been calling me nonstop since earlier today. I talked to him briefly, just to let him know that I didn’t want to continue with what we had. He wasn’t trying to hear it so he’s been trying to get in touch with me all day. “Yeah that’s his disgusting ass,” I replied, silencing my phone once again. “You need to answer the phone. You already said what you had to say. He just needs to accept it and move on,” Kelly said. “Girl forget Jay. Let’s find something else to watch,” I said while flipping through some channels. We settled on a Lifetime movie and continued to enjoy our night. About ten minutes into the movie my phone started going off again. Instead of ignoring it, I decided to pick up this time. “What Jay?” I asked in an annoyed tone. He was getting on my nerves and I was ready for him to stop calling. The only reason I didn’t turn the phone off was because I didn’t want to miss a call from Micheal. “Open the door,” he said right before he disconnected the call. “What did he say?” Kelly asked. “He said to open the door,” I replied. “How the hell did he even know that you were here? This nigga is a stalker for real,” Kelly said while walking to the door. “He must have seen my car outside,” I replied while walking to the door with her. Being his usual arrogant self, Jay walked right past Kelly as soon as soon as the door was opened. “Excuse you. You need to speak when you walk into my house,” Kelly said with her hand on her hip. “Hey Kelly,” he replied sounding irritated. He looked over at me and walked further into the living room. “Let me talk to you for a minute,” he said while looking down at me. “Y’all can go upstairs in the other bedroom if you want to,” Kelly said to me. Without waiting for me, Jay walked off and headed upstairs to the room. He knew this house inside and out since he’d been here so many times before. I started walking behind him, but Kelly pulled me back before I got too far. “Hurry up and get rid of his ass. I don’t want to be put in the middle of this mess. Micheal is going to kill me if he finds out that I let him in my house,” Jada whispered. “I know. I’m sorry, but I didn’t know that he was going to show up here,” I whispered back. I took the steps two at a time trying to get to Jay. I wanted him to say what he had to say and leave just as quickly as he came. He was sitting on the bed playing with his phone when I entered the room. “Why are you here Jay? I told you that I was done with this and I meant it,” I said, standing near the door. “So just like that, you don’t want have nothing to do with me? What did I do this time?” He asked. “You didn’t do anything Jay. I told you that I’m just trying to make things right with Micheal,” I replied. I wasn’t trying to hurt his feelings, but I had to be honest. I couldn’t do this anymore. “Why is everything always about him? I hope he’s as loyal to you as you are to him,” Jay said. “He’s my boyfriend, that’s why everything is always about him and don’t even try to use that reverse psychology on me.” “So you expect me to walk away just like that?” He asked walking towards me. I thought he was leaving so I moved to the side, allowing him to pass. Instead of walking out of the room, he closed the door and stood in front of it. I thought back to what Kelly said about Jay doing anything to be with me and I got scared. I didn’t think that Jay would ever hurt me, but I couldn’t be too sure. When a person’s back was against the wall anything was possible. “Jay please don’t do this. You need to just leave,” I said nervously. He ignored me and pushed me down on the bed, laying his tall muscular frame on top of me. I tried hard not to, but I couldn’t resist the scent of his Ralph Lauren cologne. When he pinned my arms up above my head, I tried to protest, but it was too late. He covered my lips with his and all of my words were silenced. This was not supposed to happen. Not only was I about to have sex with my married ex- boyfriend, but I was doing it in the home of my current boyfriend’s cousin. Kelly would kill me if she knew what was going on. After a long passionate kiss, Jay stood up and started to remove his clothes. If I wanted to stop him, now was the time. Instead, I looked on as he took off every piece of clothing that he had on. When he was done, he walked over to the bed and proceeded to do the same thing with me. Still, I never attempted to stop him. Once we were both undressed, he got up to turn off the light before rejoining me in the bed. As soon as he got back in the bed, he did what he usually did to make me forget why I wanted to break up with him in the first place. He pushed my legs back as far as they would go before burying his entire face in between my legs.
*****
A few hours later, I woke up feeling slightly overheated. It took a few minutes for me to get my bearings to realize where I was. I tried to sit up, but a pair of strong arms prevented me from doing so. I looked at the clock and almost died when I saw that it was after two in the morning. Jay was knocked out, still just as naked as the day he was born. I tried to pry his arms from around my naked body, but that only made him hold me tighter. I really needed him to wake up and make his exit before Kelly noticed that he was still here. Just as I was about nudge him, I heard Kelly voice coming from downstairs. “How the hell did y’all get in here? Get out before I call the police!” She yelled. “Jay get up,” I said, while shaking him at the same time. I didn’t know who Kelly was talking to and I was scared. I thought someone had broken into the house and I wanted to make sure my friend was alright. I heard some more voices, but I couldn’t make out who they belonged to. “Jay get up! Something is going on downstairs,” I said in a panic. “Girl go back to sleep. You must be having a bad dream,” he said, sounding groggy. “No, I’m not, just listen,” I said. The voices were getting louder and it sounded like they were coming up the stairs. “Please don’t do this. Just listen for a minute,” Kelly was pleading. “I know you heard that,” I said looking at Jay. Both of us sat straight up in the bed, just as the bedroom door flew open. I grabbed the cover and pulled it over me and Jay's naked bodies. I was in panic mode until the lights came on and I saw who it was standing in the doorway. “I knew you were a hoe,” Tori said standing in the doorway. Nay was standing right next to her shaking her head with that stupid ass smirk on her face. Kelly pushed past both of them and stood at the foot of the bed crying. “Bey, I’m so sorry. I don’t know how they got in here,” she said crying from the pit of her stomach. I didn’t know what the hell Kelly was crying for. It didn’t matter to me if they knew about me and Jay. It was my word against theirs and I was taking this to my grave. She had nothing to be sorry about. I was just about to go off when another shadow appeared from the darkened hallway. I knew the expression on my face had to be the same as a deer caught in the headlights. My heart dropped at a quickened pace and my words were caught in my throat when I looked up and locked eyes with Micheal.
[FIN]
