Only For You • Kim Mingyu

[thirteen]

                   Amusement Park

Mingyu's POV:

Days kept passing by. Winter vacations had officially started. But nothing changed between me and Miyeon. How'd it change? She wouldn't even look at me properly.

What if she never talks to me? Do I need to bear this guilt for the rest of my life? I never got my answers to the questions which are even hard to explain or understand.

I was deeply lost in thoughts but got interrupted by a knock on the door.

"Mingyu-ya are you there?"

"Come in Jeonghan hyung."

"Up for a talk?" I hummed in response. He sat beside me, tugging his hair behind his ear. "Are you doing fine these days? You don't seem so well." Concern was painted all over his face. At the end of the day, he was the one who cared most about me.

I was sick of this constant distress. As if the guilt was tormenting me everyday and teared me apart. I was becoming dull and lifeless day by day. I needed to open up. "If I'm being honest, then I'm not okay." I lowered my head, fidgeting my fingers together.

"Is it about Miyeon?" He said like he knew exactly what was on my mind.

"How did you know?" This time I shifted my gaze towards him. "It's quite obvious. Both of you are acting strange lately. More like you guys are avoiding each other. Both of you look so pale and colorless." I could see a small glimmer of hope. All my stess alleviated by the thought that I wasn't the only one who was suffering mentally.

"Now tell me what's wrong. Maybe I can help fixing it." He folded his arm, waiting for me to speak. "Well, we had a serious fight. I kinda went through her stuff in her absence but I never imagined she'd react like that. She kept on accusing me, so I lost it and throwed out some rude and offensive words to her. I regretted my actions my later but when I went to apologise, she ignored me and said that she doesn't want me near her. I really do feel sorry. But she... wouldn't even look..." Not being able to finish my sentence, I groaned in frustration.

He let out a heavy sigh. "Do you feel guilty for what you did?" I nodded my head fervently in response.

"How do you feel around her?" I tilted my head, raising an eyebrow in  confusion. "Why are you asking me this?"

"Just answer me." He started to become impatient. I needed wise advice but he demanded answer to the question that never came across my mind.

"It's a weird feeling. Sometimes I feel my anger raging up when she talks down to me. Sometimes I feel my heart beat like crazy when I see her. At times I feel attacked when I see her with other boys. I don't know. It's hard to explain."

"You know what? You are starting to fall for her." His lips tugged into a warm smile.

What?

Am I really falling for her?

What have you done to me Yoon Miyeon?

I averted my gaze as I felt uncomfortable after his comment. "See You are blushing. Oh my Jisoos our little bad boy is in love with my sister." He squealed like a fangirl, already getting busy deciding ship names for us. My face heated up like crazy, blood rushing all the way to my ears. I started fanning myself using my hands even in this cold temperature.

Jeonghan giggled at my meaningless actions. I was like a glass to him, he saw through me everytime.

"Let's move on to the topic. Your top priority is to clear all misunderstandings. I think I've a plan for that." He patted my back assuringly. After hearing his plan I huffed in relieve, hoping that his plan would work.