Only For You • Kim Mingyu

[twenty-two]

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Miyeon's POV:

3 days passed after they celebrated my birthday. I never ever expected them to even know my birthday. I had never been so touched in my entire life. It felt like I had been getting more and more attached mentally and emotionally to them. The impact they had created in my life was way too much to be described in words. They changed the flow of my life, in fact changed me.

Just the mere thought of leaving them shattered my heart.

"What are you thinking?" I felt a pair of hands wrap around my waist, he put his chin on my shoulder. "Nothing." I replied nonchalantly. "That's bad." I sensed his lips pouting, the corners vaguely shaking. "What's bad?" Not moving an inch from our position, I asked curiously.

"I thought you're thinking about me. Your head should be filled with only my thoughts. How disappointing." I chuckled at his response.

How can a single person have so many personalities? He has a bold and bad boy image, a bright one, a hot one, a cute one when he's mad or needs anything, savage and clumsy one, loving and caring one and a cheesy one. He's sure a unique person to begin with.

"How much cheese do you eat per hour to say such stuff?" I stated sarcastically. "Who needs cheese when we've Jeonghan and Coups hyung's bromance?" Laughing soundingly, he played around with my fingers. Did I hear him right?

"Wait what? He's-" I couldn't advance as I almost choked on my saliva. "He declines it but my instincts tell the opposite." I exhaled in relief. Not because I hated gays or I was homophobic or something. I just wanted another female member excluding me in our family.

Later, we sat on the balcony with hot chocolate to warm ourselves up. A comfortable silence emerged as we gazed at the tall monotonous buildings and the busy streets; cars and vehicles moving like an ant, sometimes stallion. Despite the fact it was late, the city lights weren't dimmed.

"Funny right?" He sipped his drink for the last time. I tilted my head, acting like I had no clue. "Funny and at the same time amazing how we ended up dating." Reminiscing the old times, I understood what he had meant. "Yeah I never thought I'd develop feelings for my frenemy like seat mate. Not to mention housemate too." I inhaled softly.

"Just curious. How many girls have you dated before?"

He nervously laughed, rubbing his nape. "I don't know the exact number. Probably near 100 or 120. I guess?"

I nearly spitted my drink.

Glad I didn't because if I did, then it would land either on his face or on some stranger's head. I didn't mind the first option though.

I knew he dated alot of girls but near 120 was beyond insane.

Seeing my shocked expression, he drew circles on my back. "I dated them because I was bored and they'd always clinge to me. I never had any sort of serious feelings for them." I sighed lowering my head. A wave of disappointment went down my body.

I wanted to ask if he was dating me just for time pass, but I didn't have the guts to ask him.

Or maybe I was scared of his answer.

Luckily he answered that himself. "But none of that applies to you. You're the first one I've actually ever felt for. More like my first love." His lips curled up into a warm smile, showing his dazzling canines which I always found attractive. All of his features were attractive, I just liked his eyes and canines more.

"You will never leave me right Miyeon?" He asked taking my hands in his.

"What? No." I shook my head and squeezed his hands.