Only For You • Kim Mingyu

[eighteen]

                         I like you

Miyeon's POV:

"I like you Miyeon." Just when I heard his words, I had decided. I wasn't confused anymore. I wasn't questioning myself anymore. I was completely and absolutely sure.

I didn't want to waste a single moment. I immediately rushed to Mingyu's room and knocked on his door, "Mingyu, it's Mi-one-of-a-hell-yeon. Can I come in?" He peeked through the door before letting me in.

I couldn't really penetrate his expressions well. He stood still while rubbing his nape in a nervous manner, eagerly waiting for me to speak.

It was like he had been expecting me.

Mingyu's POV:

My heart was beating frantically against my chest in anticipation. I knew exactly why she was here, because it was the first time she had been inside my room on her own will. She wouldn't be here if it wasn't for something serious and right now, nothing is more serious than her answer.

Part of me told that she'd reject me. There's no way for her to like me back. All I ever did was annoy the fuck out of her. Another part told me to keep my hopes high. There's still tinsy bit of a chance that she'll like me back, or at least she can learn to. I'm willing to wait for her; as long as it takes. A month, or even ten years.

Nervousness from predictions engulfed my soul. "So, y-you decided already?" Unknowingly I stuttered, "I-it's okay if you reject me, I under-"

She interrupted me by placing her lips on mine, planting a soft peck.

I felt heat rush up to my ears, my eyes widened in disbelief. She was grinning brightly, "I guess this is the only way to shut you up."

< < flashback > >

"I like you Miyeon." His sincere words made her realize whom she truly liked. It cleared all the doubts, leaving no room for any controversy.

"I'm really sorry Joshua. I can't consider you more than a friend." Said she. She felt guilty for rejecting someone so close to her heart like him.

Joshua had always been by her side. He was the first person to welcome her into their group with open arms. His sweet and thoughtful gestures never left her feeling anything aside appreciation and gratitude. What gives her the right to hurt him after receiving such warm treatment, she thought to herself. 

"It's okay. I kind of guessed your answer." He replied with a sad smile, bitterness and grief was vivid in his tone.

"Do you possibly like someone else?" He sat up straight facing the sky, causing her to do the same. She didn't want to say his name, wouldn't it just hurt him more?

"It's Mingyu isn't it?" He affirms after a pause of silence. Even in the dim light, the cherry pink tint on her cheeks seemed visible enough to him.

She nodded shyly and averted her gaze. He let out a sharp sigh, running his hands through his locks. She felt the urge to comfort him but couldn't find any words to say in particular. She had been alone all her life. Running, hiding, helping mankind, fighting to survive. She never once imagined she'd have to deal with such complex emotions in her life. She came to acknowledge that life was more than just her own struggles and hardships. It was also about the people around her and their sorrow and endeavours and happiness and the choices she made; choices that could affect everyone's lives.

He noticed the unsteadiness she was feeling, "Please don't be sorry. If being with Mingyu makes you happy, then I'm happy too. Your happiness matters to me more than anything." He remarked sincerely and flashed a sad yet pleasant smile, trying his best to hide the devastation behind it.

She had comprehended the fact well that how much he really loved her.

Not as an girl, not as his friend. But a person. As a human.

He gestured her to go to him. She hesitated for a moment, contemplating whether to leave him alone like this or not. But seeing the optimistic and supportive look in his eyes, she got up. She smiled at him for the last time before heading for Mingyu's room.

Joshua remained there alone, thinking over and over about his past actions. He thought to himself, 'I should've never told her about my feelings. I should've just kept them to myself.' He then gazed at the moon that was on its way to become a full one.

It seemed lonely, just like him.

A strong wind stroke his hairs. He again sighed. It was true that her happiness meant the world to him, yet he wanted to become the cause of her happiness. He wanted her and only her by his side for the rest of his life.

But fate is indeed cruel. He was never destined to be with her, Mingyu was.
He halfheartedly assured himself that love would come once again in his life; the old will wilt and a new flower will bloom.

Maybe that time, it won't be one sided. It'll just appear as beautiful as the first one.

< < end of flashback > >

"Y-you-" She again didn't let me finish my sentence properly, "Yes stupid I like you too." Her cheeks turned rose pink after uttering those words. She nibbed onto her lower lip. "Stop staring at me like that now." She muttered.

I was losing my mind. Literally. Happiness and immense joy took over my entire body. I slapped my cheeks hard to check if I was really dreaming or not.

Damn.

It hurt pretty bad.

Means everything was real.

I pulled her into a tight and warm embrace. I was dying to hold her like this since the day I realized I had feelings for her.

She smelled like lavender.

She instantly hugged me back, as if she was also waiting for it to happen.

Our first real hug.

This was actually the first time we physically interacted, minus the fight.

I didn't want to let go of her.

It felt so right.

I wanted to treasure this moment forever.

She's gonna carry all my babies.

We gradually let go, our foreheads locked and nose touched. My hands didn't leave her waist, her hands were also wrapped around my neck. I pulled her closer to me, deleting the remaining gap between us. We could feel each other's hot breath on our skin, our lips only a few centimetres away.

They were about to meet.

Just then we heard a loud thud on the door and two ear slaughtering screams.

We instantly backed off from our positions.

"Oh my god. OH MY GOD! Hyung and noona are doing gross things. Cover your eyes Dino. Eww eww." Seungkwan and Dino faked a puke expression.

We turned crimson in embarrassment. When did they come in and for how long they were watching us? Like seriously. For the love of God. Out of all times, you guys had to come right now and ruin our first little private moment? God really must hate me.

That exact moment, I wanted to drown myself along with them in the vast ocean of holy water.

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Lmao why did I end it this way? I'm out of my mind. A/n needs motivation. I'm running out of imaginations. I really don't know how to proceed with this story. So if the writing style is childish or repetitive then I'm sorry. *play super junior sorry sorry* Anyway I'll try to add up smuts. Maybe? I'm not sure hehe.