Uncertain Thoughts.

bittersweet

"All the love in the world is useless when there is a total lack of understanding," said a great poet. The generation we belong to has everything but the capacity to love. I'm writing this today because I see my close ones love and suffer.  Everyone has a different point of view and I respect it and I hope you respect mine. 

there are times when people love you but not in a way you understand. everyone loves differently. as I quote the words of Landon from the after series "just because someone doesn't love you the way you want to doesn't mean they don't love you with all their heart" I won't lie I envy the love Hardin and Tessa had for each other or the immense love Heathcliff and Catherine shared. I envy the love that's inked by the poets and those silent lovers. Maybe that's where true, genuine, and pure love belongs, In the pages of old and dusty books.

We all want to be loved, but in that process, we accept the love we think we deserve. You shouldn't settle for something less. If a person truly wants you in their life, they will work for it. Trust me on this, if they want you, they wouldn't put you in a situation where you have to leave them. Don't ignore the red flags. Being afraid of losing someone is okay. in fact, it's important.  If you take care of things they last. You wouldn't mess around with something that you're so afraid to lose, would you? you wouldn't risk it for the world. That's love everyone searches for but destroys it when its found.

Forever. another myth we take too seriously. Nothing lasts forever. forever is a word that doesn't even exist, no one knows hog long YOUR forever is going to last. Why use words that have no meaning attached to it? All relationships will hurt you once a connection has been formed. Time really doesn't matter. Some relationships foster over the years and sometimes you meet a person and you know they mean something to you. I don't know what that "something" is but its definitely not nothing.  

Time isn't your enemy, it's your friend. I've always believed that time is my biggest enemy but now after all this. time is more like a friend. Time doesn't mess up, we do. we're too much of a coward to accept our mistakes so we conveniently put the blame of time. you will lose a bond with a person over time, it's not because of time, its because YOU didn't put efforts in that relationship. How will you learn from your mistakes if you can't even understand what you've done? Sometimes you even lose a person who you give everything to. it's not because you weren't enough, its because there are someone else whos worth holding that position in your life. trust the process, everything happens for a reason. 

I could write pages on "love" and it won't be enough. I am not aware of love, I am not but I am aware of all those poets and writers who describe love as the most creative and destructive feeling. I don't know what love feels like but I know there are people out there who love me. Actions speak louder than words ever could. According to me, love doesn't only reside in those 3 words. It lives within us. You don't have to be good with words to tell someone you love them. I'm not good with words and I mess up but that doesn't stop me from showing my love towards someone. I believe anything is possible if you try. Your love might have everything that one is looking for but does it have that depth? Think about it.

Everyone's struggling with their lives. If someone helps you or looks out for you when they're struggling, that's love. Love is a promise you have to keep anyways. When it's your problem, you share with them and they say "we'll figure it out together" that's love. being there for someone, being the reason behind someones smile, making your loved ones happy. loves not always intimidating, it's understanding, its selfless, it's so much more than any of us can even imagine. love is bittersweet. sometimes as sweet as honey sometimes as sour as a lemon. 

Some might find this as random words scattered around which are "relatable" and for some, this might rip your heart out.
Take care of yourself xD