Uncertain Thoughts.

Tomorrow.

We're so busy trying to figure out what our story is we start to live in the future. We create scenarios in our head hoping one day they come true. we overthink all the what-ifs. we're so focused on "what if" we forget about our "what is". that's is our present, our now. You know, personally I love planning about my future with my close ones, not only because the future is a mystery but also because it wouldn't hurt os much if I wasn't a part of their future.

We're in search of our forever being oblivion of the fact that forever doesn't exist. we don't have forever, no one does. There are few people out there who I want to spend my little forever with, no matter how long it is. if you've loved and been loved you're one of the few lucky ones. There are many people who've loved but haven't received love and there are people who've always got love but weren't capable enough to reciprocate that love. They say true love is hard to find, now is that so really? love comes to you when you least expect it to. You don't find love, you just get it. it depends on you for what you do with that special love.

Some old classic lovers like Elizabeth Bennet and Fitzwilliam Darcy, Catherine and Heathercliff, and even Daisy and Gatsby where love is portrayed and is fulfilled. these novels show the pretty side of love. what about those dusty novels kept on the shelves waiting to be read. those novels which hide the ugly side of love. Loss. Why not talk about Romeo or Juliet whos "love" was left incomplete because of the society, Rose and Jack who just couldn't make it out together. What about Will who had to let Stella go so she could live? What about Agustus waters and Hazel Grace whos journey ended too soon? ever thought about that? we overlook the ugly parts. Some times people who we love leave us. Remember not everyone who leaves wants to. All these stories, fictional or not teach you to VALUE the moment you are living right now because they will be memories tomorrow. if you can't control the future why overthink it?

Not everyone gets to be with that one person they really want to spend their forever with. We mess up. If you're getting to spend that time, please live it. Consider yourself very lucky to have that person who you can give all your love to and accept all the love he/ she has in store for you because I've learned to do that and I don't think there's any better feeling than this.

Time is all we have and all we don't. It hurts to know how lovely a person is and be so far away that you can't hold them but enough to break your heart. That's what distance does. To everyone who has read The After Series by Anna Todd, Hardin was miserable without Tessa and Tessa didn't function like she would. Yes, love is all fun, understanding and beautiful but what about the ugly parts? The parts which hurts you, the part when your heart breaks. Love is never enough to stay in love. If you're miles away it needs effort. A lot of it. You always have the urge to see them, to touch them, to tell them every single thing that has happened but you can't do anything about it. There are those long lost lovers who've lost the love because their significant other moved away. After all loves archenemy is distance.

Once you find that person you want to spend your forever with you don't want to lose them. Hell no. You feel lost and sick just by the thought of it. Life moves on and we have to let go, no one has seen the future. So we push all those thoughts away while evening aware of the fact that and we have to choose one day. You don't want to say goodbye because you don't know what happens and that's understandable.

There are times though where you just have to leave everything on the universe and move on with hope. Only hope that one day you'd come across that person again and they'd still want you. If they moved on you'd be happy for them but you'd break inside and you'd feel lost and I get it. It's okay not everything works out according to your plans. So live it right now, live this moment, this second because no matter how much you try it's NEVER going to come back. We're here now and now is what is important.
So slow dance with them, get wet in the rain, hold hands when you walk, go on long drives, watch them smile, go to the beach, watch sunsets, play games, surprise them with little things, be the reason behind their smiles because you're there with them. Now. That's all you have. This moment, this minute, this second, so love.