Uncertain Thoughts.

Little things.

Books, poetry, music, art, psychology; these things are so strangely addictive. These little things will take up maximum space in your heart. It's always them, a quote you read or a song you heard or even a painting that made you feel better.

Books to live the life of a completely different person and get lost in the world that lets your imagination take flight and escape from the life you have. Honestly, sometimes you do need an escape from your ordinary but happening life and just live as another being in a world of your known where you know no matter how bad things seem, it's going to end well. Often when things come to an end is when we actually realize the value of it, we think about those chances we didn't take. We find ourselves obsessing over the end when we don't even know how close that might be. Is it the excellent ending that really matters or is it the journey, the risks you took and those few people who were there with you. 

Similarly, we have poetry, to express all that we feel through words that make sense. Some write it, some prefer to find and understand their feelings in others writing, and then there are people like us who prefer both, to find calmness and the feeling of being understood in those few pages and to confess and accept the situation through our own words. Every thought, every word, every sentence that you read or write takes a piece of your heart without you knowing it. 

It's hard to express yourself sometimes, you just can't and that's where music comes in. You attach your feelings to a song and you put all that you feel into that one song and just learn to express and accept your feelings through it. Those lyrics that are merely words turn into your confessions, those truths you wish you accepted before and that's okay. Sometimes those feelings overwhelm you so much you feel like drowning your thoughts in that music and that's alright too. Drowning your thoughts, expressing your feelings, accepting your feeling and even dancing in your room creating scenarios in your head of you and the one who's name makes you smile ear to ear. These feelings and emotions make us human and mostly what makes us ourselves.

If you look at painting and observe it you see it's made up of different components that make it a whole, the details, the fine strokes and the perfect blend of colours. I don't think there's much different between us and that painting on the wall. We seem like beautiful souls but once you pay close attention to it, you start to notice those details, those tiny details that makes us ourselves and makes each one of us different. Like that abstract painting on the wall, we also want to be to be accepted, to find a place to call our own, to be appreciated and most importantly to be understood.

If you look at it with my perspective, I think we all just want to be understood, somehow, somewhere, we just want to belong. It's one of the most important human needs, to belong. If you look at Maslow's hierarchy of needs, to be loved and to belong are the most important psychological needs for a human. Psychology has world of itself, perhaps the only place that somehow makes one feel understood. There's all together a different view of those who are familiar with this subject. Those people are the one's who'd try to analyse and understand you with every detail you provide them with because trust me, they'd climb mountain and swim oceans to be understood, just once.

Sometimes all you need is a hand to hold on to till the storm passes, a shoulder to rest your weary head on after a long day, arms that hold you close and make you feel protected at all times and someone to just be there by your side. I hope you find that person, your person and by that i mean that person who's going to be permanent; your bestfriend, your cousin or parent, the love of your life, anyone.

Life is unpredictable and surprisingly hard, it gets harder as you grow up but with the right people it's easier to pass through the tough times. There's no easy way out, you go through it. You make mistakes and you learn from them, every single day. Don't be afraid to make them, take chances, take those risk, make difficult decision even if things seem impossible do it for yourself, no one else but
you.

I hope this finds you well, may you find comfort and feel understood here and I wish you the best.

Xoxo.