Mistakes || H.S. ||

chapter 61

I walked down Madison's staircase lazily. I was currently wearing a blank tank top with leopard print cheer shorts, I always wear.

I haven't talked to Harry the past 2 nights and in 2 more days I would be going back with them on tour. I really miss him. The way he would always give me good morning kisses or at night before bed we would always cuddle before I fell in deep slumber.

I walked down stairs, hearing lots of talking in the kitchen. I knew Madison and Devin weren't home, because they had work. I snuck behind the door, listening to the conversation going on.

I heard a husky voice, " I still like her Zac. I can't stop! It's been like this for years, why can't I get her out of my mind?!" Oh my gosh, it was Nathan. He still loves me?

"Dude, she loves Harry. I'm sorry, but I've never ever seen her look or love a boy as much as she loves Harry. She may like you deep, down inside, but I don't know. Why don't you ask her now?" My eyes widened, when I let the kitchen door fall back and sprinted up the stairs. I ran into the closest room and slammed the door. I turned around sliding down the door.

I looked around the big bedroom. Shit, I'm in Zac's room.

After a few minutes of engulfed in silence, just hearing my breathing. I heard a slight knock on the door.

"Zoe. Babe answer the door!" Nathan said. My heart dropped at his voice. He seemed broken. Sad. Which was probably the cause of me..

I stood up dusting off my legs, I opened the door with Nathan standing their with bags under his eyes. I let him walk through into the room, shutting the door behind us. I sat down against the door, while Nate sat down on Zac's bed.

"Zac went to get groceries, he said it might take several hours." He said reading my mind. I nodded, fumbling with my fingers.

"Zoe..." Nathan mumbled, I looked up into his sorrow eyes.

"Yeah?" I said.

"Can we please just talk about what you heard?" I nodded, swallowing at big knot in a my throat.

"It started whe--" I cut him off.

"Nate! Let's just start over, why does everything have to be so depressing and sad? Let's have some fun!!" I explained. He smiled standing up, grabbing my hand.

"What shall we do?" Nathan asked.

"Let's go to the park!!" I yelled running to my room. "Be ready in 5 minutes!!" I smiled, glad that I have the old Nate back, and I can have a great 2 more days til I see the boys.

I grabbed yoga pants, tennis shoes, and a Victoria Secret sweatshirt. It was kind of chilly outside, so I dressed warm.

I walked downstairs meeting up with Nate. "Ready?" He smiled, opening the door. I nodded, running towards the sidewalk. Knowing the park is only a mile away.

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We made it to the park just in time. I smiled running towards the swings, "Come on!" I shouted. "I'm trying, I'm a slow fatass." Nate joked. I giggled. Nate was always the one to crack a joke every second of the day. I could never take him serious.

I jumped on to the swing, and Nathan was going higher than me. I pouted and he took notice. He jumped off of his swing, no walked over towards me. "What's wrong?" He asked concerned. I giggled, knowing I'm about to ask a stupid question.

"Will you push me?" He laughed nodding. I fist bumped, happy that he will.

He grabbed the bottom of the swing pushing me, higher than he was actually going.

"I missed this, Zoe..." I sighed.
"Me too. You have no idea, how much I miss us being so close." I whined.

He stopped my swing and I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Come on." He said walking into a trail.

"Okay?" I said confused.

We walked atleast a two mile trail. I couldn't stop laughing the whole way.. Nate makes me smile nonstop.

I rubbed my arms, the wind sending chills go throughout my body. I only had a light sweatshirt on, yet I was still freezing to death. Nathan took notice and gave me his KD jacket. "No. Please, it's fine." I pushed it off. He put it back over my shoulder. "No I insist." I smiled. He wrapped his arms around my shoulder in a friendly way. He tried warming me up, and he succeeded quickly. My heart was beating 100mph and I was getting butterflies in my stomach. No. No. This is only suppose to happen with Harry. I can't be doing this! No... I shook my head, trying to get that feeling out of my body. Thankfully, Nathan didn't see me.

We made it off the trail, I took a seat down at the end of the mountain. Nathan still had his arm draped around me. I smiled looking at Nathan.

"I haven't had this much fun in a while." Nathan assured. I smiled, not knowing what to say back.

I yawned, and he squeezed me closer to him. I laid my head down on his shoulders. Thoughts running through my head.

Nathan is only my best friend. Nothing more.

You don't like him.

Never.. You love Harry. Harry is your boyfriend...

Nathan put his hand under my chin, raising my head up staring into my eyes and then he looked down at my lips. He was about to kiss me. He leaned in and I felt his breath on my lips. His lips attached to mine in seconds. I was frozen. Why am I kissing back?
This should be Harry. I hit Nathan's cheek, not hard. But enough for him to release. I stood up.

"Why?!" I cried.

"What?! You kissed back Zoe. You know you did! Just admit you did." He yelled.

I closed my eyes, tears running down my cheeks. "I was caught up in the moment!" I grabbed the ends of my hair in frustration. Nathan stepped closer grabbing my wrists. I jerked back.

"Don't touch me." I cried, Nathan's eyes widened, in sadness. He looked scared.

I turned away running full speed. I didn't know where I was going. All I know is that I have 20 bucks and I'm still wearing Nathan's jacket.

I ran as far as I could into the mountains, tears pouring out my eyes. Why did I have to kiss him back? Sure, Nathan is totally intimidating. He has gorgeous hazel eyes, the perfect body, and he smells fantastic. But Harry does too!! I put my finger to my lips, still feeling the tingling when I kissed him. Snap out of it!

I laid against a tree, knowing I can't go back to Madison's or to Harry...