Irresistible

𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑭𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒚 𝑶𝒏𝒆 "𝑩𝒆𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒂𝒍"

𝑩𝒆𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒂𝒍

𝑲 𝑨 𝑰

My mom is not getting better. I never really noticed how she acted during my fathers death because I was in my own state of mind, but this is really bad.

She hasn't left the house the entire two weeks. Tomorrow Jay is supposed to come back for the funeral. It's going to be very weird having her here. I hope she knows she'll always be welcome no matter the circumstances.

"So how are you feeling?", I ask taking a seat next to her handing her the breakfast I made for her. She just shrugs.

At first it wasn't as bad.. But now it's a whole different level of grief. She hasn't took a shower all week. Still wearing the same pajamas and her hair is in knots.

"How about we go out to the beach.. Take a walk?", I suggest. She shakes her head then picks at her food. "You can talk to me mom", I sigh.

"There's nothing to say. He's gone. It's my fault", she says as a tear slips past her cheek.

"It's nobody's fault. He didn't want people to know. He made that very clear. If he cared about his health then he would've got treatments", I frown. I don't want to bad mouth him but it's the truth and my mom needs to hear it.

"But he told me.. I could have took him to the hospital then", she says and another tear falls. "Everyone I love dies. It's always my fault", he groans and more tears fall.

She has a point. Both my dad and James she loved so much.. They both died leaving her to deal with all the pain. Pain that no one should go through for loving someone so much.

"You may have a point about loving but it's never your fault. We all have a plan in life.. Maybe everything is meant to be", I frown bring her in for a hug.

"It's was a plan for your dad to die? Then James. The only other man I fell for? Is the plan for me to never be happy?", she cries harder.

"No ones knows the plan. But everything is meant to be. Always", I sigh.

"Do you think the plan was for you and Jayleen to meet?", she says pulling away wiping a tear away from her cheek.

Plan?

I would never have wanted Jay if it would put my mom in such pain. If it would relive any pain she had by never speaking to Jay again.. Well I would do that. For her.

"No. The plan was always for you and James to meet. You found love again. Maybe you need to find another love?", I guess in technical logic James was a rebound. Her next love can be the real thing for her.

"I don't want to date anyone else. I couldn't handle any more death", she laughs sadly.

"Why would he have to die?", I frown looking her in the eyes.

"I'm high school.. The guy I was dating for two years died. He was driving home one night and someone crashed into him. The driver was intoxicated, but he got off Scott Free. It was a horrible situation", she shighs. "Funny how fate kicks you when your down. The next month your grandpa died. "Kai everyone I love dies.", she presses.

Honestly this sound really weird. Maybe she is fated to only love then die.

"I'm sure it was all coincidental..", I say scratching the back of my next.

"No. I know how this works. I love someone.. They die. That almost happened to you twice Kai! You know how scared I am for you?", she asks seriously. "It terrifies me that you are going across the country", she sighs.