Don't Cry (Trans!depressed Deku x Todoroki)

Telling Mom

After Sho and I talked, we went downstairs to  eat breakfast and tell my mom about yesterday. As we walked down each step, my anxiety only grew. It felt like I was about to have a panic attack. Mom was in the kitchen making breakfast, and it smelled amazing. When Sho and I got to the bottom off the stairs we both said good morning to my mom. " Good morning boys! I made banana pancakes for breakfast today. How are the two of you doing?" She asked.
" I'm doing great Mrs. Midoryia." Sho responded.
" Fine." I said.
    We both sat down at the table and my mom handed each of us a plate of pancakes. I slowly ate my pancakes. I couldn't finish them though. Sho ate his pancakes quickly. My mom then grabbed both of our plates and began to wash them. " Thank you for the food Mrs. Midoryia! It tasted incredible!" Sho exclaimed.
" I'm glad that you liked them!" My mom responded.
    I looked down at my lap. My anxiety felt like it was going to crush me. Sho looked at me and placed his hand on mine. I calmed down a little and looked up at Sho. He always had a strange way of somehow calming me down with the smallest actions. " M-Mom, I have something to tell you." I said as I looked at her, dreading what I had to tell her.
" What is it Izuku?" She said.
    " It's about yesterday. I-I tried to k-kill m-myself again. I-I tried to j-jump, from the b-bridge. S-Sho s-saved m-me." I told her while starting to panic. Tears began to flow down her cheeks like a river. She quickly got up out of her chair and hugged me tightly.
" Izuku please, please don't try to kill yourself! I couldn't bear to lose you!" She cried out.
" I'm sorry." I said, feeling terrible for making my mother so sad.
" I'm going to get you a therapist." She stated.
    I was on the brink of tears but fought to hold them back. Why do I have to make everyone around me sad. You are so worthless and stupid. You can't do anything right! You really are just a deku, and worthless person who can't do anything right! I'm tired of this stupid little voice in my head, it just won't go away. Even though I love Sho and I know he loves me, even though my mom loves me, and even though I have friends at school that care about me, I still can't love myself. I still can't help but hate myself, cut myself, and I still can't help but feel like everyone else would be better off if I were dead. I'm just a waste of my mother's money, and Sho deserves someone better. I'm not even a real boy, and no matter how hard I try I'll never be a real boy. I'm just a fake. Why can't I just love myself?

Hope you enjoyed this short chapter. Sorry for taking so long to update. Ive just been having motivational issues. Also I would like to get your opinions on Okami, the main character for the manga I want to write. Do you think it is too much if Okami is gay, transgender, and apart of an endangered species? He is kinda like a reflection of me when it comes to the gay and trans part. I was also planning on having a non-binary character and a pansexual character too. I'm aiming for lots of diversity in the characters like race, sexuality, gender identity, and of course different species. Also, do you guys have any suggestions for shonen anime or manga series that I could read or watch?