ARTFUL Roses ( Suga Ff )

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Sunlight pranced across my room giving it a hazy feel. The soft heat rushed through my body , bringing me back to land.

Rubbing my eyes slowly , I woke , for a moment I wondered in which dynasty I was breathing, then yesterday night event hit me like a sting stone. I wanted so badly to tear up again but that was certainly not the first thing i was planning to do in the morning.

Yesterday's sleep made me see and understand things more clearly . Like I admitted to jungkook I decided to fight for him and make him love me back.

“ let’s do it y/n”

With full determination  I hoped out of bed. I almost forgot that yesterday I forgot my lunch as well as dinner.

“ let’s have breakfast first” I said to myself and moved out of my room. I expected suga to appear infront of me , but he was neither in his couch sleeping nor in any other room .

“It was too early for him to disturb his sleep , where the hell did he go” . I remember myself getting to bed devastated and broken but I don't see any memories of him coming back home after our fight. I wanted to check the only room in first floor but maintaining distance from his secret room is the best thing to do if you don’t want to see smoke coming from his nose and ears. Eventually I stopped my hunt descending to the assumption that he might be out for work or  having some time alone to figure out my sudden confession.

Holding my coffee mug in one hand , I was thinking what to do next . It was clear that I was going to fight for him but the question was exactly how I was gonna do it. I could come up with only two worst ideas. Either I should kill elena with my fierce gaze of jealousy or threaten suga to love me and both these ways had a lot of loophole. My first plan is certainly is of no use and if I go with latter then he might kill  me

“ geez why is thinking so hard” I said rubbing my temples.

Yesterday what he said certainly made sense. It is never possible to throw the most cherished vace cause it is broken and like he said I am not gonna give up my love without doing nothing.

Everything was going perfectly as unexpected as I didn't  wanted but there was one thing which was bugging me. I couldn’t understand what his eyes meant  when he said 'y/n , I can’t accept your feelings ' .

I could see there was definetly something holding him back. I could sense how desperate his eyes sounded when he rejected me. His words said some thing but his eyes indicated there is something deep hidden. But what exactly it was. I pulled my hair back in frustration , my eyes landed on the wall clock. Almost three hours has passed and there is no sign of him , which was making me quiet worried .

I checked my phone hoping there would be some message from him, but our chatroom was blank. I wanted to call him , but my ego restricted it. I know ego should not exist between love but in my case it was one sided love , so I was free to break this hellish rule.

I started doing household chores , in an attempt to distract myself but it was of zero use. Every passing minute, tension was building up in me. Lots of question erupted in my mind and the most agreevating question which scared me 'Did he leave me' .

Seven hours has passed already and still there was no sign of him.

“ego my ass, let’s just call him” I said to myself and called him. The line did connect,  the ring went on but he never picked up. I called him 3 times and he ignored them. Frustrated, I decided to text him but those were not even delivered for him to read In first place.

I tossed my phone away , anger and anxiety growing inside me. I banged the table with my fist as this mixed feeling was making me go crazy.  Just then I heard the sound of door bell echoing in the house. I had a sudden thought that it might be him but the fact that he uses spare key destroyed it. I had a second thought that it might be jungkook and  it was indeed him.