Her.

Chapter Five.

As Esme ran through the list of songs she had chosen for the podcast, being streamed in various countries, hundreds of people tuning into to listen to the young adult, Perri and Jordan sat listening intently, both loving the songs being played, enjoying listening to someone who was now classed as an inspiration to the younger generation, even if people didn't know who she was, it didn't matter, the topics she spoke about, the songs she played, everyone could relate to at some point.

"So, it's been spoken about for me to do a question and answer segment, it's honestly not something I've thought about, but I guess if that's what you guys want, it's something I could do?" Esme questions to herself, I mean it wasn't like she was talking to anyone, she was in a small studio, locked away, the door double locked, Jamie sat outside the door, almost as if he was guarding the queen, but he was guarding the biggest secret at the moment in the radio business. "It's also coming up to mental health awareness month, that's something big, it's something close to my heart" Esme whispers into the microphone, almost scared that her own voice would break her. "So, I guess, maybe one day I will get over my own anxiety, maybe one day the world will know the girl behind the microphone for who she really is, but as for now, i'm leaving you with this one last song, until next time people" Esme smiles, as 'Anxiety Anthem' by Mabel begins to play through the speakers in the room, Esme smiling to herself and taking the cyberman headphones off, proud of herself with the show she had made happen in a few minutes, this was what she loved, being able to place a mask on and do what she wanted to do, no questions, no one to tell her how to do her own show.

Meanwhile, back in the make do photoshoot studio Jordan and Perri placed their own headphones away, Perri's eyes scanning the room for the female who had handed him the paper, the changes to the interview that was due to take place now, but all he could find was Emily. "Oh, Perri, Olivia is in reception, would you like me to go and get her?" Emily questions, as Perri's eyes darken, not that anybody else in the room would see that. Jordan mumbles something inaudible behind him. Perri turns around and glares at his best friend, his jaw clenching. "Yes, if you could" Perri smiles at Emily, who nods her head, unable to think of anything to say to the male who was now glaring at his best friend, never seeing them like this before, the awkward tension filling the room.

"Out of the old, and into the new" Esme sings to herself, as she scribbles away in her notebook, the notebook no one ever saw, walking down the hallway minding her own business, as she looks up and sees the strawberry blonde hair she hadn't seen in over a year, Esme instantly cowering away from Emily and Olivia who were walking in the same direction that Esme was. Esme sighs to herself, pulling her cardigan around herself, as she slips the small notebook into her oversized pocket on her cardigan, following the two other females in the studio.

As Esme stands at the door she notices Olivia run over to Perri, who embraces her in a hug, lifting her off the ground, confusion running from Esme's head, how did Perri know Olivia? Olivia hadn't been to the Kiss studio in over a year, and that was Esme's fault, Olivia would always say it was Esme's fault. Esme stands with her back against the wall, leaning backwards, keeping out of sight, as she watched Perri place a quick kiss to Olivia's cheek, watching the blonde female giggle to herself, as Emily sighs from beside Esme. "I hate to say that they are cute" Emily mumbles, as Esme finds herself unable to take her eyes away from the sight in front of her. "Together?" Esme whispers to herself, as Emily sighs. "Is this you admitting that you fell for the afro male without talking to him?" Emily chuckles from beside Esme, as Esme shakes her head, the question Emily asked spinning around in her head.

Was it possible to fall for someone you had never spoken to? to fall for someone you didn't even really know?

Esme looks over to Jordan who was stood with his arms crossed, shaking his head and Perri and Olivia, making Esme smile momentarily. Jordan's eyes catch Esme's, smirking at her slightly. Jordan begins to walk over to Esme slowly, every step Jordan took making Esme's heartbeat faster, as her eyes flicked over to the two young adults, still embraced in each others arms, making her feel sick. "Hey, I don't think we've ever spoke, I'm Jordan" Jordan smiles at Esme, who opens her mouth, trying to say anything, any word would be better than nothing at this point, but nothing leaves her mouth, making Jordan raise his eyebrows. "Her names Esme, she's doing a silent thing for a fundraiser" Emily mumbles, as Jordan smiles in Emily's direction. "Oh, that's cool, I saw you earlier didn't I? leaving the board room just before Pel" Jordan questions, as Esme nods her head to confirm that it would of been her. "So, are you one of the sound people or photoshoot people?" Jordan chuckles, as Esme stands there with her mouth still slightly open, trying to make words form to come out of her mouth, but instead, all she does it turn and walk out of the room, doing the only thing she could ever do, run when things get hard.