Her.

Chapter Twelve.

A week later..

"Are you sure these balloons look okay here?" Jamie questions, as Esme fixes the blue and pink balloons gathered around the doorway. "They look fine" Esme chuckles, as Jamie rolls his eyes at her. "I don't get why we need blue and pink balloons" Jamie states, as he walks to the middle of the room, looking at the hard work that both of the adults had done this morning. "Because it's a gender reveal party" Esme chuckles. "But I thought it was a baby shower" Jamie states as Esme rolls her eyes. "You know, for someone who is smarter than me, you don't know a lot do you?" Esme laughs, as Jamie mumbles something that wasn't English under his breath.

"Just rememeber that im not really talking to you right now for inviting a certiain duo" Esme mumbles, as Jamie laughs in her direction, pulling her into a hug. "Well, i saw on the CCTV cameras for studio three that a romance may be blossoming" Jamie teases, as Esme rolls her eyes, pulling away from the taller male. "Are you spying on me?" Esme questions, as she looks up to her brother, his smirk making her eyes roll. "I wasnt spying, but i did wonder where everyone had got to in that time frame, so you're telling me that you didnt want to kiss him?" Jamie questioned, as Esme rolls her eyes again and shakes her head. "It was a in the moment thing" She whispers, as Jamie shakes his head at her. "I've seen the way you look at him, it's almost like you just want to talk to him but something stops you, well now you've spoken to him, nearly kissed him, do you not think it's time they knew who you are?" Jamie questions, as Esme takes a seat in the middle of the room, shrugging at her brother. "It's like, if i tell them i do their schedule it doesn't seem that bad, they don't seem that bad, but then they start hanging around me more, they start listening to conversations, and i don't think i'm ready for them to know who i really am" Esme whispers, as Jamie nods his head, sitting down next to her, placing a hand on her shoulder and rubbing it soothingly. "That's why we take it one step at a time, but if you are performing at Kiss's party, we need to work out how that is going to happen if people still don't know who you are" Jamie whispers, as Esme sighs, leaning her head on her brothers shoulder, wishing this wasnt the way things had to be.

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As more and more people entered the Kiss reception for the baby shower of Alana, Esme's adopted mum and Jamie's biological mum, Esme found herself hidden away in studio three, talking to an empty room, but thousands of listeners, everything she had been feeling over the last few days about Perri drifting away. "I feel like i havent been myself the last dew days" Emse breaths into the microphone with a small chuckle at the end of it. "I mean, i feel like everythings all over the place right now, but you know at the end of the day its going be okay, but it doesnt stop how you feel does it?" Esme questions to herself, as the new panel that had been installed shows she had callers on the line, but although Esme felt more confident, she didnt feel confident enough to answer the phone right now. "There's a lot of questions about who i am, why i keep myself unknown, the only answer i can say is its easier this way, easier for now anyway" Esme whispers, as she sighs to herself, pulling a hand through her hair. "But, i guess i have a question for you all, you can tweet me or DM me, but, do you think its possible to love someone you've never met?" Esme chuckles, asking the listeners the question she had been asking herself for a while, did she like Perri without knowing him, she didnt feel like she could love him, she didnt think you could love someone you had never met. "So, to end this podcost, here's one of the song's ive had on loop recently, until next time guys" She smiles as 'IDK You Yet' by Alexander 23 plays into the stream, as Esme mutes the microphone, taking her headphones off and just takes a moment to listen to the music playing softly in the background.

Meanwhile, the room full of people to celebrate Alana's new addition to the family, the afro haired male was looking for a set of green eyes in particular, looking for the female who had avoided him for days, but he had ultimatley avoided her too, keeping his head down and his hood up when walking around the hallways, not wanting that awkward conversation. "Yo, Jord you seen Esme?" Perri questions to his taller bestfriend, who was enjoying the cupcakes on the table with the rest of the food, as Jordan shakes his head, swolling his food. "You seem really interested in her right now" Jordan smiles, as Perri shakes his head, looking down at his phone that was now telling him that 'Girl Behind The Microphone' was currently streaming, as he puts his airpods in and listens to the last few moments of the stream, Esme's voice talking, not that Perri would know that though, but the song that plays after makes a realisation happen in his head.

He felt the same way, but wasnt it ironic that the female who wasnt here, when she should be wasnt, and ironically, the girl no one seemed to know was currently streaming, let alone talking about the same way Perri had felt the last few days.