surviving my life

closer than ever

Beep! Beep! Beep! I groan as I lift my arm to get my phone from my stand. I didn't find my phone instead I felt someone. I sat up quickly, confused. I see mark asleep. His body was facing me and his hair was everywhere. "Oh yea" I thought as I rembered everything that happened last night. I still heard my phone beeping and reached in my pocket to turn it off before it woke up mark. "Do I have to go to school?" I thought to myself. I debated over it then got up and got in the shower. I got dressed and put my clothes in my duffle bag. I would have to go back and get more clothes soon I thought. "Maybe mark will come with me" I said to myself. I don't know why but I suddenly felt better whenever I was with mark now. Maybe it was that he drove all that way to get me or that he gave me a place to sleep but i felt OK. I haven't felt this way in a while and I know it probably won't last the entire day but right now I wanted to enjoy it while I can. Since I'm used to getting up early to walk to school I went back and played down. I tried to go back to sleep but I couldn't. I looked at mark and I saw that his hair was messed up like a lot and his mouth was slightly parted. I noticed his phone was on his night stand next to him and I smiled as a plan formed in my mind. I sat up softly and as carefully as I could I reached over him and grabbed it. I unlocked his phone "who doesn't have a lock on their phone" I thought. I went ton his camera and positioned myself right next to him. I started taking a few stupid pictures of me and him. When I was don't taking a few pictures I reached over to put it back but when I was right over him his phone started vibrating and a siren was playing. I freaked out and dropped his phone on his face. "CRAP!!!!" I yelled in my mind but physically I was laughing like a idiot. Mark on the other hand was startled at first then mad then confuse. " WHAT THE HELL!?!?!?" he yelled. I was still laughing like a idiot to answer him. "Why'd u thrown my phone at me!?" He half asked and half yelled. I tried to calm myself down and said "I didn't throw it I was putting it on your stand" "why did you have it in the first place?" He asked "crap I'm caught". I thought then said "here let me show you" I grabbed his phone from where it fell when he sat up and went to his pictures. I showed him the pictures I took and as he went through them he got a smile on his face. He looked at me and said "that's totally not cool!" Even though he tried to hide it I knew he wanted to smile. "Your fault for not being awake" I countered. "Its not my fault you wake up earlier than me" he said. "Its not my fault you don't lock your phone" I said. I heard someone laugh and looked at the doorway, I saw Megan standing there. "Are u a ninja cause I never see you until you make a noise" I asked her. She said nothing but walked away. I heard a door close so she must've went to the restroom or back to her room. "Do u wanna shower first or me?" Mark said. "I'm already ready" I told him with a grin. He looks like he doesn't believe me then notices my clothes and looks shocked. "Umm OK u can chill while I shower then". He leaves and after a minute I tree take out my charger and plug it in. I go into the kitchen and got myself a glass of water. I got pretty bored so I started looking through his pantry and refrigerator. In his pantry I noticed a box of buisquick. I took it out and checked the time. "I have time" I told myself. I turned the oven on so it would be ready and looked around for the things I needed. I started mixing the batter and spooning them on the pan when Megan walked in with a back pack. "Whatcha doing?" she asked. "Making pancakes want some?" "Yes!" She shouted. I laughed and continued to put more batter on the pan I flipped them when they need to and soon finished all the batter. "You can get some now if you want" I told her. She jumped up from the chair she was sitting on and put two pancakes on her plate. I went to the pantry and looked for syrup. I found some and the very back and I also found some white powdered sugar. I smiled as I went to the fridge and looked to seen if they had strawberries but sadly they did not but this was still good. "Here let me see". I told Megan as I took her plate from her. I poured syrup on her pancakes and sprinkled the powdered sugar on top. "Here try this" I told her. She cut a piece and tried it. Her grin grew as she continued to eat them, my stomach grumbled but I ignored it. "That was awesome!!!" She shouted. I laughed and said "help yourself to more" as I motioned to the stack. She got up and got a couple more. Mark came in a few seconds later with his hair still wet at the tips. "What are ya eating?" He asked. "Pancakes" Megan seemed to sing. "Omg your gonna give her a sugar rush" he told me when he saw Megan poring syrup and powdered sugar on her pancakes. "I made you some too if you want some" I told him. "Sure thanks" he said as grabbed a plate and stacked it with a few pancakes. "It would have been better if ya had strawberries". I told them. "Are you going to get some" mark asked me. "No im umm... Not hungry" I said even though my stomach was growling. I grabbed my water and sipped it. Mark kept looking at me for a few seconds before he went back to his pancakes. "Hey where are yas parents?" I asked. I thought it was weird since I haven't seen them. "They went on a trip so they won't be back for a couple weeks" mark answered. "Weird". I thought. "Who leaves their kids while they go away for a few weeks?". I decided to forget about it. When Mark and Megan finished we all got our stuff to go to school. Mark saw me getting my duffle bag and asked me "why are you taking your duffle bag?" "I can't stay here forever mark, I'm gonna have to find somewhere else to stay" I told him. "You can stay as long as you need catcher". He told me and I felt good on the inside because its been a while since someone actually cared and showed it. "Thanks but after work today I'm going to start looking for a apartment or something" I told him. He gave me a smile and said "no rush". We all got inside marks car when I suddenly remembered I forgot my phone on the charger "crap wait I forgot my phone" I started to unbuckle my seatbelt but mark stopped me and said "its fine ill get it" before I could say otherwise he got out and started walking to the house. "Are ya two dating" Megan suddenly asked. "WHAT!?!? NO" I exclaimed. "Oh OK" she said simply. "Why do you ask?" I asked her. She hesitated slowly then answered "because mark picked u up at night and ya slept in the same bed and I think he likes you" she said matter of factly. I thought about what she said "does mark like me??? Is he even gay? How do I not know this? Do I like him?" I thought about the questions in my head but the last one stuck out the most. Do I like mark? I never questioned myself about this. I mean I never had a girlfriend and I never liked a girl. The only person I was remotely interested in was Evy but I couldn't even decide if I liked her as a friend or not. I didn't see mark until he opened his door. "Here" he said with a smile as he handed me my phone. "Thanks" I mumbled. We dropped off Megan at her school first and then drove to ours. We were quiet on our way to school and that's when I realized that the happy feeling in had was gone already. Mark pulled into the parking lot and we both got out and walked to the cafeteria together. When we walked in I saw someone sitting in our spot that i didn't recognize. "Who is that?" I asked mark and he shrugged and walked over to our table.