surviving my life

home sweet home

I walk inside and my parents are watching TV. I ignore them and they don't try to talk to me. I walk through the kitchen and I see my older brother, John, eating a apple. He catches my eyes and stare at me with hatred. I ignore him and walk pass him but when I do he sticks his leg out causing me to trip. I stumble and get up. When I fell one earbud came out and i heard him mutter "freak" under his breath. I quickly climb the stairs and go into my room and lock the door. I take off my earphones and place them on my drawer. I crawl into my bed and take out my sketch pad and a pencil out. I start drawing small things first, then larger things. An hour has passed when I hear my mom yell that dinners ready. I grab my earphones and dig around one of my drawers for my iPod. I don't usually listen to my iPod since I have my phone but it has some music that I have in my iPod and not on my phone. I hear someone knocking in my door and then the knob twisting. "Its locked" I yelled. I turned my music slightly down so I can hear the response. "Come eat loser" john says. "Not hungry" I said and he doesn't hesitate and I hear his footsteps leave. I turn my music back up and allow myself to get lost in drawing. I didn't even know what I was drawing until I was almost finished. The picture was of me and Evy at the park. I stare dumbfounded at the picture. "Why am I drawing pictures of her?" I thought. I shrugged it off and finished the drawing. After I finished I got up and went to the kitchen to get a bottled water. My family was just finishing dinner. I got a bottled water and was about to head back upstairs but John tripped me again and this time I hit my head on the ground with a large "smack" I felt the pain a few seconds later when blood started oozing from my nose. I quickly got up and got paper towels from the cabinet. "Are you guys not going to say anything!?!" I yelled at my parents. They looked tired like they didn't want to deal with me anymore. "Say anything about what?" My mom asked. "About john being a dick and tripping me!" I said. "I'm sure it was a accident" my dad had said. "Yea chill out its not my fault you can't stay up right" john said. I looked at all of them. "One day I'm going to leave this fucking house!!! And I'm never comming back! When they call saying one if you are in the hospital dying I'm just  going to hang up!" I yelled. "Why don't you leave right now if you want to so bad!? Its not like we want you here anyways!" John shouted. I ran up my stairs and slammed the door shut and locked it. I grab a duffle bag from my closet and put a couple pairs of clothes and grabbed my bag and put my scetch book in it. Last I grabbed my wallet and my check book from deep inside one of my drawers. I took my phone and texted Nicole "hey where are you? I need you"  she replied a minute later. "Sorry super busy but text mark maybe?" She added his number in another text. I texted him "hey can you come get me from my house please its catcher" as I hit send the tears started rolling down my face. Mark texted back a few minutes later. "Ok im Almost there" I breathed out a sigh of relief but my tears kept coming. I got another text from him that said "I'm here" I grabbed my bags and made sure to get my charger and left my room. The kitchen was empty when I went through it but when I was heading through the living room everyone was watching TV. John looks at me only for a second then goes back and watches TV. My parents look at me then ask "where are you going?" I ignore them and continue to the door. When I reach the door and open it and just when I'm about to step outside my dad calls out "if you leave this house tonight, you'll never be welcomed back!" I can see my moms anxious face and johns smirk but I focus on my dad cold hard stare on me. I say "I'll be back for my other stuff" and I slam the door as I walk outside. I can see marks car sitting up front so I go and get in. "Hey why'd you need me to com.... Are you OK?" He asked and I just noticed that tears were in my eyes again. I wiped them away and said "yea I'm fine". The car was silent then mark asked "so where am I going?" "Oh crap" I thought were am I going? "Can you just drop me off and nicoles? I need to see if its OK to stay there a few days." He nods and drives. When we're close to nicoles I text her "come outside please?" I send it while mark parks. The door opens and Nicole comes out. I get out if the car and ask her "hey do you think your parents will let me spend the night for a couple of days?" Nicole looks uneasy as she replies "no I don't think you can because my parents are like really mad right now at me and I don't think they'll let you" I groan and say "do you think Hailey will let me?" "No" Nicole says. "How do you know?" I ask. "I'll explain it tomorrow but right now I need to go back inside OK?" "OK bye". I get back inside marks car. "What did she say?" He asked and I only shook my head. "Just take me home Mark, I'll see if my dad will let me go back inside". "Are you sure?" He said. "I don't have anywhere else to go" I said. Mark seemed hesitant as he answered. "... You can stay with me if you want" I looked at him but his stare was focused on the road. "Really?" I asked. "Yeah" he said. I sighed in relief "thank you" I thought. I started to doze off as mark drove back to his house and I noticed he lived kinda far from my house. "Mark you live far away from me why'd you come get me?" He just shrugged and I let it drop. We got to his house and he helped me with my bags. He led me through the house to a room and set my duffle bag on the ground next to a bed. "This is my room" he said. I looked around and it was a normal sized room with a desk in the corner and a computer on the desk. A small bookshelf on a side and a TV on the wall. I can feel my body slightly swaying from exhaustion and mark notices. "You can sleep here" he said as he pointed on his bed. "And you?" I asked. "Umm I'll sleep on the floor" he replied. I sat up and started to get up. "Its fine" mark says. "No its not. You shouldn't have to sleep on the floor because of me. You can keep the bed and I'll take the floor" I said. Mark was about to answer when I heard footsteps in the hall. A little girl appears at the door. She looks around 11 or 12ish. "Who's that" she asked. "A friend of mine why?" Mark said "Cause" she said. "Is there anything you need Megan?" Mark asked. "Where's he going to sleep?" She asked. "Omg is everyone worried about my sleeping whereabouts?" I thought. "On my bed" mark said. "Umm no I'm not" I told him. "Why not" The little girl Megan asked. "Because its marks bed not mine and I don't want him to sleep on the floor" I told her. "Well why don't ya both share it?" She told us both. Mark looks down with red crawling up his neck and I mentally laugh "I don't know Umm do yo want to mark?" I said biting back a laugh. He looks up still kind of red in the face and looks at me. "Yea sure". Megan seems happy with that and leaves. "Who was that" I asked Mark. "My little sister". He told me. I kick off my shoes and lay down, I scooted over the the right side if the bed so mark could lay down on the left. Mark looks at me puzzled. "You were serious?" He asked. "Yes you're not sleeping on the floor!" I tell him. He grins as he lays down. "Thank you... For everything" I tell him. His smile gets a little bit bigger "you're welcome" he says. "Can I tell you something?" He asked me. "Yea sure" I tell him but it came out all mumbly. Exhaustion has caught up to me now and I can barely hear mark say "I think I'm falling for someone but I don't know if they like me back" he said. I mumble "tell them" before sleep takes over me and I couldn't hear his response.