Secrets and Things (MxM)

~ Background information before we begin ~

If you're seeing this, it means

1. I've actually posted it which means i was able to remove everything that is linked to this account and my personal life because fuck publicity and hello anonymity. Truely exciting.

1.5 also idk why you guys are here ngl or how you even found this but hey welcome. don't keep your hopes up for anything though. it's gonna be a mess

2. I've never actually written anything ever online ever before so like pardon me for being trash at this. I failed english at school (ok not really but I did pretty bad) so this should be interesting

3. I don't have an editor and it hasn't been betaed (idk actually know what this means. i just assumed its just editing from all the author notes from the many fanfictions I've read)

and now the most important note

4. this story... i actually don't know what it's on or what i'm going to write (wtf that makes no sense). No it doesn't but basically this uh story or whatever it is... is going to be storyline based on one of my dreams... ok that also kind of sounds whack. actually if this is going up, it means i do know what's going on... well i didn't when i wrote this author's note ok

FOR MORE CONTEXT

basically, when i try and go to sleep, i dream up my own little world with my own little story to help me go to sleep. escape to reality you could say. i dream up things i could never have in this life time or things that are just fluffy or just anything. but most of the time i just dream up relationships between two people (mostly two dudes bc bl is cute and no, I don't fetishise them. I like the fluff and its just fluffy ok) and the development of their relationship. once i get bored of 'that world' i create a new one. so now i have like 10 different couples in 20 different dimensions. My point is, this story is going to be based on one of these stories

now because these are dreams, half the time logic and physics and events don't match up or clash with each other which i can ignore in my head bc its just me and stupid nightdreaming but can't actually ignore when im writing this story so that should be fun. Apologise in advance if any clashes do happen though.

another warning, this story may finish, this story may be dropped. im just writing bc procrastination and i just wanna idk write something i guess bc i can and I see why not. A lot of elements may not be explained throughout the story which should be expanded on bc i never expanded on it in my head and it was just there bc you know, its my head. idk why i need to explain it.

Update: I didn't drop it lmao

just a few more warnings now: POVs are probably gonna be skewed and all over the place and i apologise for that. i know nothing about the corporate and business world so im making shit up. deal with it. also i love stereotypical tropes and pairings. ON TOP OF THAT, I completely winging it without a plan. yeah you heard me. this bitch ain't planning because she's a dumbass.

Ok so when I mean by that is that the only "plan" I've got was the ideas I thought/dreamed up. I didn't exactly rough draft it and make it neat and comprehensible and not a clusterfuck. Why? because I wanted to try winging it and see where it went (and I'm lazy af).

Update: NEVER right a story without creating a plan of the overarching... everything. You'll end up in my position of A LOT OF FUCKING CHAPTERS AND WORDS. jfc. I still have more to go :(((

no one could also be reading this. that's fine too my friend lmao. this is most likely the case because i'm not gonna be promoting it anywhere. but if anyone IS reading it, please don't send me any negative comments or harsh criticism. I have a weak heart and can't take that kind of shit. it hurts me. i more or less know where I'm flawed with my writing but i'm mainly writing this for myself anyway and if anyone reads it, great! just, if you don't like it, don't read it. thank you. 

This story kind of serves as a therapeutic output, where I destress through writing out this story. So it's a lot of ideas just being splurged onto a page. I wanted it to be on platform that can be accessed anywhere in case lose my document or something, so I can come back to it and go down nostalgia lane. It's all for fun and casualness, nothing serious.

SUMMARY: THIS STORY IS BASED ON A SELF MADE 'DREAM (daydream? but at night?)' AND WILL PROBABLY MAKE NO SENSE BUT THANKS FOR READING IT ANYWAY 

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20th December 2022 UPDATE

So if you're following the story, you might see that the story is now marked as complete.

IT ACTUALLY IS NOT COMPLETE.

I still have the other couple to finish up. The reason why it is marked completed is because:

1. To let any readers who are waiting for chapters to pile up that the first couple is done

2. Putting the tag creates the illusion that I have time and alleviates the pressure of getting chapters out ASAP. This time, I plan to write up till the end and then post them all together (or in a frequent nature)

3. In the event I don't finish the story... well people will know one couple is done at the very least, just not the other.

Thanks! :))

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