Her first

Chapter 4

I fail to hold in the tears as I walk out of the hospital, I am really emotional about this whole thing. On my way home I pass through my mothers house and find Lilly outside typing away on phone.

"Eli, couldn't stay away from yours truly huh?"

I walk to her, give her a hug and she asks in confusion.

"What's up with you, talk to me big bro"

"I..I don't know what to do, I need help Lilly" i respond hugging her tighter. I'm hating the fact that I found myself in this situation. I mean I love Sophie what happened with Emily wasn't supposed to mean anything was it.

"Wanna go inside?"

She asks me patting my back.

"No, i don't want anyone to see me like this let alone Grandma she'd be worried, let's go for a drive.

I toss her the car keys. We're driving around I fill her in on what has been happening up until the rough encounter with Emily's dad.

"It sounds like there's one thing that's obvious about this situation Eli"
"What's that?"

She parks by they side of the road, kills the engine and looks at me.

"I'm sorry but you're an idiot if you don't see the truth"
"Which is?"
"You have feelings for Emily"
"But I love Sophie"

I respond to her, although the thought of me having feelings for Emily never crossed my mind until now. She starts the engine and drives back onto the road.

"Even I feel like leaving you alone right now"

Emily's words hit my mind like a hammer driving a nail into the wood they push my mind a few weeks back bringing flashes of memories I shared with Emily. How she made me feel, how she makes me feel. It comes to my realization that I do infact have feelings for her. But what about Sophie.

"I have feelings for Emily"

I say smiling at Lilly who smiles back, but it quickly fades once I remember what happened.

"Thanks for listening sis and doing most of the talking"
"Anytime you need me, I'm right here just be glad I didn't smack your head"
"I promise to give you permission"
"Who said I need it"

I give her a hug.

"see you soon"
"For sure"

I get into my car and wave goodbye as i drive off, I get to spend time with Sophie but it's not the same as the time I spent with Emily. I make a choice that makes me wonder how Sophie will feel.

"I need to talk to you about something"
"Sure what is it"

She looks into my eyes as though weighing her words before she says.

"You can tell me anything Sophie"
"I'm pregnant Eli"

Just then her phone rings.

"Hey Jenny"

Wait, what did she say. She's what will breaking up with her be okay now, it won't be right to do it now. She responds to her friend on phone.

"Girl Megan is throwing a party, seniors, frat boys, even Dylan will be at this party"

She walks out of the living room, I'm forced to listen in on the conversation.

"Really, I can't believe the hottest people will be next door to our dorm and I'm not there to chug all the liquor"
"I know, and Veronica would have loved to just show off her new off the run way outfit with you around"
"I'm guessing her possy has matching outfits or something with them around it's always The Veronicats Bi**ch fest"
"That is why this party needed you queen b, the baddest bit** on campus"

Sophie really has a lot going on at college huh.

"You're killing me Jen"
"I gotta go sweetie, Sexy Dylan has just arrived and we looking to play truth or dare"
"Alright sweetie, tell me the deets later"

She cuts the call and comes to the house. I honestly knew that this time would come. Sophie seems to be falling out of love. But why did she come back. Is it just to get pregnant. Was that why she insisted we make love a few days back.

"So you know it's yours right"
"What do you mean?"

"My college days have drifted us apart Eli, but I came back to be with you to show you that's why I surprised you last night"

She takes my hand in hers.

"I do care about you a lot, but I know that this period has been hard but I love you so much"

Was I about to leave this woman, now I'm even more confused.

"It's not like"

She puts a finger on my lips. "You don't have to say anything Eli just show me how much you love me"
"You're the best you know that" I respond cupping her cheek. She holds my hand against her cheek then looks into my eyes.

She kisses me then stands up.

"Good Eli, I'll be headed back to college tomorrow"

I look at her, sadness dissappointment and heart broken she heads for bed.

"Goodnight"

The next morning I wake up earlier than Sophie, as she's preparing for her trip her phone rings. I await for her to come pick it up but she doesn't. The phone rings several times before a text is sent.
"Babe"
"I'm coming"

As I look on the phone I see the text

"Unknown number: I know your secret"

Who has sent a text to Sophie saying I know your secret.