Mr. Used Love

Chapter 14: Erasing the thought of You

John's POV

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I smiled at Alex, completely lost in everything around me. However, when I looked up all I could see was him right now. His face was absolutely glowing and precious.

I could hold back the soft and quick laugh.

"What?" He asked with a cute pout.

I held his chin on my hand like a perch.

"I get to see you this happy, even though this is the first time I've seen you." He laughed in reply.

"And? I'm with you so of course, I'm happy!" He jumped closer towards me hugging me again.

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I held out my hand towards him, helping him and guiding him out of the bedroom.

"Thank you." Alex took my hand and looking down guessing I couldn't see his blushing.

"Anything else you want before we go downstairs?" I tilted my head to the side in curiosity.

"Can we... Uhm... Nevermind, I don't want to make you do anything. It was stupid to think we should do something old."

"Oh, did you want me to do what I used to do to help you calm down? He just about squealed.

"Uhm, no?" He tried hiding his face that was currently holding the hoodie I had passed to him.

"It's more than okay, Alex. You just want comfort right now right? Here." I held my hand out to help.

"Fine, but only because you said you were okay with it." He handed me the hoodie and I helped him put it on.

"Come 'ere, I got you." I laid my arm around his shoulder and pulled him closer.

Again I lifted his chin up, having him look up at me. Then I take his hand in mine and kiss his knuckles, leaving my lips in the very spot for a few seconds more.

I lifted my hands to his cheeks rubbing both thumbs over his face, completely there for him with those small actions again.

"I'm still here for you, Alex. Before you were mine, you were my best friend. Maybe I shouldn't be saying that up right now but I want to help you now." He giggled.

"You said now twice." He smiled down at my shirt, his head facing down in my hands.

"Yeah, I did." I laughed silently.

"I don't mind you mentioning it actually. You were also right, however, I never stopped seeing you as my best friend."

I had to look down at him, this time in shock.

"Wait what?"

"Yeah, I just got frustrated and felt stuck... With Thomas of course, not you." He looked up at me. 

"Wait, Alex. I don't want you thinking you have to say this or anything else, for that matter, to make me feel better."

"I know you'd say something like that, so yes I am telling you what I feel. And while I definitely don't want to rush into anything for both our mental health's sakes. I do still want us to be friends."

"Okay..." I couldn't help but pull him into a hug.

"Thank you, Alex." 

"Thank you,  John."