Mr. Used Love

Chapter 13: &Burn

Alex's POV
*TW: Abuse*

"Alex..." At first, I heard the voice of John, but it became a memory of Thomas.

"Alex!" He snapped

"Wait, what did you say?"

"I told you to get the fuck over here, now!" He barked at me and I felt a small and grim laugh rise up inside me.

"Coming..."

I found my body moving on its own accord, without me actually wanting too. I never wanted this, even though I know about it now. The only question there ever was to me was how was I supposed to get out of it. No one actually understands where to start right?

I can't be the only person who never believed they would end up in a relationship where they are hurt by the person they love? I can't be the only one! Someone has to have not really known where to start when leaving this situation.

What does he want to do to me now?

"Alex?!" He screamed again for me.

"Coming... I'm here." I walked into the living room.

He was sat on the couch hunched over staring at his phone, not even interested. Seriously?! Yell at me to come to you but then act like you don't need it?...

"You needed me?" I shyly asked.

I felt a pain in my stomach and found myself sliding against the doorway of the bathroom I was standing in front of. What was that?

Looking down I saw the book he threw at me.

"Thomas?"

This time I saw the dim blue lights in this calm-looking bedroom.

John was there and comforting me and this attempt from my friend really helped, because I began to feel an urge to act upon the actions to end things with Thomas.

"Hey, Alex? It's me, John, you're right and I'm here for you as a friend whenever you need. That's what today is about." I felt myself stop shaking in response to his talking.

"I don't like the silence..." I responded timidly.

John began to ramble on and on to simply allow me to hear the sound of his voice. Strangely this had to have been the most comforting thing anyone had ever done for me.

"Hey, when you feel safe tell me if you're comfortable with me checking how on you are, okay?"

"Wait! You want to start now?!"

"No, I just wanted you to hear that while I was rambling. However, now that I have your attention tell me how you're doing. You know, friendly conversation?"

"Oh, thank you." I smiled gently hoping to show him this meant a lot to me and was indeed working.

I just gave up and lunged forward to simply hug John.

"I missed you a lot." I heard a small breath of air let itself go.

"I missed you too, Alex." He sighed.

I kept holding him while focussing on my breathing far too much and trying to keep it even.

"Are you okay, Alex."

"No... However, I think I know where to start." He looked down at me.

"What do you mean?"

"What if I said I want to burn letters?"

"Rationally, I might say that's a bad idea. Emotionally, I say you had me at 'no'."

"Wait, Really?!"

"Yeah, I'm sure Laf and Herc wouldn't mind letting you do what you want. Plus it's not like they don't have a fire pit out back."

"You're right." I hugged him tighter again.

"Thank you."

"Why are you saying thank you?"

"You're opening up more than I expected, then again I expected you to hate me."