I feel so numb staring at the shower wall
It's begun, the feeling that the end has come
And now the water's cold
I tried to eat today but the lump in my throat got in the way
ℕ𝕒𝕠𝕞𝕚
"Nae? are you good?" Loras voice wakes me from my sleep.
"um...yeah."
"well, i'm headed to the bonfire. just wanted you to know, since you know, you're not going" she sounds upset "listen,boo i'm so fucking sorry for what i said. i know it's a sensitive topic and i just.." her voice lowers to a whisper "i just want you to move on and see you happy. take your time though. i love you girl"
her words give me a punch to the gut and i open the door.
"don't be sorry. it's not your fault. and you're right. it was four years ago. i can do this" i say
she looks a bit confused.
"i think i'm gonna accompany you to the bonfire and face my demons head-on"
*timeskip*
the bonfire is huge and raging but the weirdest part? i don't feel a thing. i don't feel the melancholy or the self hatred. i don't feel the urge to cut myself. i don't feel anything but...calm.
"hey...Naomi?" i look up to see my twin Isla, bubbly as ever,bounce up to me.
she looks shocked.
"what are you doing here?"
me and my twin are polar opposites. she's a bubbly party girl and i'm...me. she's dyed her hair red and mine is that same glossy brown. she's at Duke and i'm at Whittmore so it's quite easy to tell us apart.
"facing my fears" i inhale sharply.
she opens her mouth to respond but is interrupted by a loud scream.
we look to the fire to see a girl in a maxi dress.
her dress is burning. and that's when i feel it.
the lump in my throat stopping me from breathing. my heart beat growing frantic, my pulse erratic. i need to get out of her. now.
i turn and run as fast as i can in my wedges. i hear my twin and my best friend calling out to me but i just can't. i won't stop. i can't stop. my mind is running a million miles an hour.
i keep on running
...until i bump into a chest. a very male chest.
"woah" a deep masculine voice says and i look up into the most mesmerising eyes. they're blue green and they remind me of pools of jade.
"are you okay?" he holds my shoulders and i realise i'm shaking.
before i can respond, i feel myself being dragged down by a force. an unknown force.
and my vision goes black.
And I, I can't come alive, I want the room to take me under
Cause I can't help but wonder what if I
Had one more night for goodbye?
If you're not here to turn the lights off, I can't sleep
These four walls and me
SONG OF THE CHAPTER; These Four Walls by Little Mix.
this song is gonna make me cryyy.
aah the girls write such amazing lyrics.
also our MCs finally meet! how are we feeling?
also btw does anyone watch this yt channel called SNARLED?
au revoir my lovelies!
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𝐈 𝐆𝐨𝐭 𝐘𝐨𝐮 - EBC
Roman d'amour'I can see you hurting I've been through the same thing Baby, don't you worry, I got you' She was broken;he was misunderstood. She was breaking down ; he was trying to build up She was unsociable ; he was the 'it' boy She is fragile ; he won't let...
