Ghost Of You | Yoonmin

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"loving you was easy,"

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MIN YOONGI THOUGHT HIS CONFESSION OF LOVE WOULD BE STUPID OR CHEESY. He figured that's how they always went, but then again, he didn't have any experience with it. He was 17 years old and had never been in love before he'd met Han. He figured they'd go somewhere romantic, even though he wasn't the type of to be romantic. Romance made him awkward. Han was the romantic. He somehow always managed to get him to dress up, and go somewhere nice with him. Han would maybe plan a picnic or a dinner and by the end he would confess his love for him or vice versa. It sounded stupid in his head. Love wasn't like it was in the movies, but at the same time he found the idea of it being nice. He didn't think it would be in his dingy kitchen at 3:00 am in their attempt to make brownies.

He wasn't quite sure what prompted the baking attempt. Neither he nor Han were hungry, but Yoongi had a box of brownie mix that had been in his kitchen for months and Han wanted to do something cute like bake with his boyfriend. All he had to do was gently kiss the base of Yoongi's neck and whisper pretty please in his ear for him to give in.

And so there they were, both of them shirtless and in their pajamas. Yoongi was busy reading off the ingredients while Han mixed. He was slightly tuning out Han as he joked about how similar this was to chemistry. Yoongi didn't want to hear anything about science (because of course he was failing) so he did his best to focus on the directions. That too was hard to do because he hand was shaking.

Han was reaching out for the second egg, when he noticed how badly Yoongi's left hand was shaking. He halted his actions and reached out, grabbing his hand. Yoongi's head shot up. "Why is your hand shaking?"

"It's nothing," Yoongi said, because it had always been nothing for him. He also knew that Han would jump at any chance to put his medical knowledge to use. The perks of dating a med student. He found it both cute and slightly irritating that Han used what he was learning in their every day lives

"Baby it's not nothing. Your hand is shaking? Are you okay? Are you stressed or nervous? Are-"

"Han I'm-"

"Don't tell me you're fine if you think that's what I want to hear. You're my boyfriend and I care about you,"

"It's not that," Yoongi said, trying to reassure him. "My hands shake, they've always have and that's that. It's nothing okay,"

"Yoongi, hands don't shake for nothing. They can be stressful induced or-"

"I'm not stressed, I'm..." Yoongi trailed off as he set down the box.

"You're what?" Han asked. He gently tugged Yoongi closer to him, forcing him to face Han. He cupped the sides of his face, and pressed his forehead against his. "Yoongi if something is wrong-"

"I'm having withdrawals okay," Yoongi sighed.

Han straightened up. "From what?"

Yoongi resisted the urge to roll his eyes at the tone of Han's voice. He glanced up at his boyfriend who was giving him a strange look.

"Nicotine," Yoongi replied. "I would start smoking when my hands shook cause it calmed my nerves. But you and your charming fucking smile and cute eyes made me want to quit and now im cranky," he added, glaring  at his boyfriend.