Ghost Of You | Yoonmin

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"coming clean," (reprise)

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JUNGKOOK FELT LIKE THROWING UP. So he did. He sat hunched over on the floor of Yoongi's bathroom as he emptied the contents of his stomach. He hadn't felt this horrible since his breakdown.

Yoongi soothingly rubbed his back from behind him. "Jungkook, you don't have to do this," He whispered softly. "If you keep stressing like this you're going to make yourself even more sick.

Jungkook swallowed the air around him, and it was a sickening sound to listen to. He'd been like this all morning. Yoongi was right - he was stressing himself out. Jungkook knew that he didn't have to, that he could wait, but that's all Jungkook had done of the past three years. waiting. But for what? The right time? There would never be a right time to talk about it. It was always going to hurt him. It would always tear a hole in him, but if he kept waiting, it would never happen.

Jungkook wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, and inhaled deeply. "I'm right here," Yoongi whispered. "Deep breaths Jungkook,"

Jungkook nodded and took another deep breath.

I need to do this

"But you don't have to if you're not ready,"

I'm never going to be ready. That's why I need to do this. Because I'll never do it if I stay quiet. I can't do this hyung, I can't!

"Shh, okay, I got you," Yoongi whispered, pulling Jungkook up into his lap. He wrapped his arms comfortingly around him. One hand found its way to Jungkook's hair, petting his head. Jungkook buried his face into Yoongi's neck. Yoongi kissed the top of his head, and squeezed him. "I'm right here, okay? You can do this," Yoongi told him. "I'm gonna be there for you no matter what,"

Jungkook nodded.

I can't do this anymore hyung

"I know. I know," Yoongi whispered. "You're so strong though, I'm so proud of you,"

Once Jungkook calmed down slightly, Yoongi helped him to his feet so that he could brush his teeth. "I'm going to call Namjoon okay?" Yoongi whispered. "I'll set something up, and you can talk about how you want to go about all of this,"

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May

"Before we begin, I would like to say how grateful I am to have Jimin and Taehyung back with us. I know that these past few weeks have been really stressful, but they are feeling well enough to join us again,"

Both Taehyung and Jimin flushed red. They weren't used to being the center of attention.

Jungkook felt sick again, and he's beginning to feel dizzy. He doesn't want to do this. He's already regretting his decision, but he's come this far, and Yoongi's hand is resting on his thigh comfortingly. If Yoongi could do it, then surely he could too, right? Yoongi was far more braver than he was.

"It's good to see you again, Jungkook," Namjoon said with a warm smile as he seated himself across from the younger. It had been three weeks since he'd last seen Jungkook, but this visit was already going to be very different from the rest. Particularly because Yoongi had arranged this meeting. Jungkook apparently had something he needed to talk about it. It felt like Deja Vu for him all over again.