It was about a week later and me and Jahseh haven't talked. He knew I missed him and he missed me. In the hallways I would catch him staring at me with a hurt facial expression. We would make eye contact and I would wave at him. He would wave back and turn away.
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It was around 9:00pm when Jahseh FaceTimed me. I missed him so I answered.
"Hey" I says
"Mamas I'm so sorry" he said in a shaky voice
"Okay" I said
"I actually thought of you before I did it" he says
"Hold on lemme get this straight.....you thought of me before you did it, knowing how I would've felt and yet you still did it" I said
"I know it sounds so dumb" he says
"You said you didn't want me around that" I said
"I know I was such a hypocrite" he said
"Mhm" I said
He then took his face out the camera and I could hear his sobs.
"I fuckin miss you" he cried
"I miss you too Seh" I say
He put his face back in the camera and his eyes were puffy and red.
"I love you" he said
"I love you too Seh but I just don't understand why you did it" I said
"I don't either" he cried
"I forgive you Seh, let's just put it in the past and pretend it never happened" I said
"You forgive me" he asked
"Yeah....this past week as been so hard on me" I said
"Me too.....my heart fell so deep in the Black Sea" he said
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The next morning
I was at the bus stop when I picked up a familiar scent. I looked to my right and seen Jahseh already staring at me. I threw myself in his arms. He wrapped his arms around me tightly.
"Fuck I missed this" he whispered
"I missed this too" I whispered
I could feel him smiling. He kissed my neck while we were hugging. We finally pulled away.
"I'm never doing shit like that ever again" he says
"I hope you don't" I say
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The bus arrived and we got on.
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I could feel eyes on me and I knew they were Jahseh's but I kept me eyes on my phone. Then I felt my jawline being grabbed and my head being turned.
"I truly am sorry" he apologizes
"I accept your apology Seh" I say
He then looked deep into my eyes before he smashed his lips on mine. He pulled away.
"God I missed your lips" he admitted
"And I missed yours" I say
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We were in 2nd period when I felt eyes on me. I looked over at Jahseh and he was looking at someone else and looked pissed. His eyes were filled with anger and his tongue poked the inside of his cheek. I followed his gaze and seen a group of boys looking at me and talking. They were biting their lips and being weird. Then they came and sat close to me and Jahseh. One of them was in the seat next to mine. Jahseh grabbed my chair and pulled it closer to his. He placed his hand on my thigh and massaged it.
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It was the end of the day when I noticed a a boy staring at me. I just looked at him. He blushed and looked away.
"Why the fuck were you lookin at him?"
Jahseh questioned
"Because he was lookin at me" I said
"That don't mean shit" he says
I just rolled my eyes
"Whatchu rollin yo eyes for?" He says
"Because you always doin this" I said
"Doin what?" He asked
"You get so pressed for the littlest things" I said
"Like I can't even look at another male" I said
"You like him?" He asked
"No Jahseh....I don't even fucking know him" I said
He just looked away pissed
"You must doubt me" I mumbled
"What?" He said angrily
"You must doubt me" I said louder
"Why would I doubt you?" He asked
"Cuz" I said looking down
He lifted my head up by my chin
"Cuz what?" He asked
"Because you're always worried about me talking to other guys and checking them out" I said
"I just get insecure thinking I'm not enough for you" he says
"You are enough for me" I say
"And there are niggas that want you that are more attractive than me so I just get more insecure" he says
"No one can get more attractive than you in my eyes" I say
"Thanks mamas" he smiled
