Married But...

Chapter 30

Anu's POV

I was so tired by the time we reached home, my eyes were barely open. My body felt heavy and I was struggling to keep my eyes open and walk properly. I wished someone would just carry me into the room and throw me on my bed. As if Anand had heard me he asked if I want  him to carry me into the room, at first, I was tempted to say yes but again I was too shy to accept that tempting offer.

"Who are you?" Anand almost shouted in irritation.

I looked at him, he was tired too. His face looked sleepy. And he was clearly irritated by seeing someone. I looked in the direction he was looking, rubbing my eyes. I couldn't understand if it was due to the darkness out there or due to my tiredness, my vision wasn't clear and my brain wasn't processing much. When the man stood up and took few steps forward I was sure that it was him.

"Ram!" I said in excitement, suddenly my body got charged I wasn't feeling tired anymore. I was Soo happy to see him. First the trip to that amazing waterfalls with Anand and now I saw Ram after long time, is this my best day?

We both talked for sometime, he played his stupid jokes to which I could only react by rolling my eyes or by slapping his arm. While we both were sitting on the couch, Anand stood at the corner of the the hall. I wasn't sure if it was due to the tiredness or Ram's visit, Anand looked irritated. The whole time his jaws was tightened. As soon as he rolled his eyes, I understood he was really irritated. I took it as a warning and quickly showed Ram guest room and went back to our room.

I thought he would be sleeping but he was still awake. He sat on his side of the bed, stretching his legs.

"I thought you might be asleep" I said shutting the door.

"Without you?" He said and immediately shut his eyes in embarrassment when he realized what he just said.

I chose to remain silent.

"I was just joking. You know" he said trying to cover it up.

I nodded while settling on the bed.

Then he hesitated a bit before speaking.
"I wanted to talk to you, before going to the bed" he said biting his lips.

I brought my eyebrows together.

"I know it's your birthday but I-I" he struggled with words.

I waited for him to complete.

He moved close to me, placing his hand in mine, he said "Anu, I know you wanted answers for some questions you have and trust me, if telling you everything was easy I wouldn't have messed it up on our wedding. Even now, I-I want to tell you everything, but it isn't easy for me. Everytime you bring up that topic, I push myself to say everything but-but I'm... I'm scared Anu" he said looking straight into my eyes with his moist eyes.

I didn't know how to react but somehow I managed to say "scared of what?"

He bit his lip before answering "I'm-im scared that you might hate me." He continued after examining my face for a second "after knowing my-my past"

I inhaled, biting my lips. I moved closer to him, kneeling on the bed, before him.
"Anand.. I don't know what your past is about. But I'm sure I will definitely not hate you after knowing it." I said as calmly as possible.

He shook his head in disbelief.

I don't know what it is that he is afraid of sharing but I couldn't see him like that. I placed both my hands on his cheeks "I trust you, Anand. I will never ever hate you" I said. And with that I understood why people say love is blind. If he is so scared of sharing it, it is definitely a big thing. As much as I know him, Anand don't get worried about small thing, so it's obvious that it is something that could bring change in our relationship.