Call Me SHERLOCK

The Big Sleep

Ni minsan hindi sumagi sa isipan ko kung ano ba ang posibleng naghihintay sa akin sa kabilang buhay. I did a lot of awful things and the least I can expect is going to heaven and meeting God's disciples or run freely in paradise.

I was too young when I lost my Mom at natatandaan ko ang sabi ni Uncle Ricky, she's surely now in a better place. Well, if anyone deserves heaven, no doubt, it's surely her. Not me. Expected ko na kasi na sa dinami daming kabulastugan ko sa buhay, sa dinami daming kapalpakan ko dito sa mundo, I can never afford the price of going there after I die.

My idea of afterlife is a lakes of fire and I'll be carrying lots of rocks uphills for eternity. Not because I'm a girl who loves to mess up with other girls and complicates the complications but because I know I am an asshole and clearly had no problem letting people know it.

So eto na ako, finally facing my death, at wala akong ibang nakikita kundi kadiliman. At some point I'm disappointed.

Pero bakit may nararamdaman akong masakit? Di ko lang matukoy kung anong klaseng sakit o saan banda, basta may nararamdaman akong masakit.

Pain?

Really now?

I thought the whole point of being dead is to stop feeling pain.

Oh God! It's a false advertisement!!!

Pa intense ng pa intense ang nararamdaman kong sakit at parang nanggagaling sa...

Wait...

Masakit ang balikat ko at sa bandang tyan ko!

Now, I can clearly feel it!

Tama.

Dun nanggagaling ang sakit.

And shit!!! Parang nabagok yata yung ulo ko.

Teka, bakit parang nayuyugyog yung pakiramdam ko? Parang may yumuyugyog sa akin.

"Glaiza! Glaiza... come on Babe, wake up!!!"

Hindi gaanong malinaw ang pagkakarinig ko sa boses ng babae pero alam kong tinatawag nya ako.

"GLAIZA!!!"

Wait! It's Rhian's voice, now I'm sure!

How can I not recognize it? It's one of the most pleasant sounds I'd ever heard. Lilting and airy even if it was pretty distress and it caress the syllables of my name with an odd sort of reverence.

It's definitely her.

This whole time, akala ko nakabukas ang mga mata ko, hindi pala. Dahan dahang gumalaw ang mga talukap ko at bigla akong nasilaw. Biglang nawala ang kadiliman na kanina ay inakala ko na ito na ang babalot sa buong mundo ko.

"God damn it Glaiza!!! Wake the fuck up!!! I need you to wake up Babe!!!" Masyadong naghahalo ang takot, kaba, pag-aalala at inis sa boses ni Rhian.

And with all I can do, I collect every strength to open my eyes. Naramdaman ko ang bahagyang paggalaw ng mga bibig ko at gumuhit ng isang tipid ng ngiti ng nasilayan ko ang mukhang hinding hindi ko makakalimutan kahit pa sumakabilang buhay ako.

"I really thought that I'm dead and I'm expecting to wake up somewhere in heaven or hell. Then I heard your voice and all I can say is that, you're the rudest angel ever." I joked. I heard my own voice sounded raspy and slurred, like it was coming from a long distance away.

Narinig kong napabuntong hininga si Rhian. But it sounds more like a sigh of relief. And then I feel an arms around me, lifting me up and holding me tightly, and it caused the pain to ramp up a bit... well, a lot to be honest... but for the moment I don't care, because it feels really fucking good to be held... I feel a head sink into the crook of my neck and tears damp on my skin.