I found Love, in Another Time? (Outsiders FF)

Insecure me

It was getting dark as Johnny, Ponyboy, and I, all made our way back to the house. It was freezing, I swear I was about to freeze to death if we hadn't arrived any sooner. Instantly, warth filled my body as I plopped down on the couch. 

"Hey guys, how'd it go?" 

"It went well" Pony replied. Sodapop plopped down besides me, and swung an arm around my shoulder. 

"Dinner's on the table if y'all are hungry" he said. Both Ponyboy and Johnny headed to the kitchen, while I stayed in the living room. "Still not hungry?" I shook my head. 

"I don't really eat, Soda" I responded. He cocked an eyebrow, not understanding what I'm telling him. But I didn't want to say it out loud. Even just thinking about it, made me wonder. I guess Soda must of seen the look on y face, cause he suddenly looked worried. 

"What's wrong, Mary?" I looked into his loving hazel eyes. 

"I don't really like talking about it" I stated. I could tell he wanted to help me so badly, if only I would tell him. But I couldn't, it'll only worry him even more. And that's not something I want. 

"You sure?" I nodded, hoping he wouldn't urge me into telling him. With one last look, he stood up and walked into the lliving room. Man, it hurt me to see him that way, but I just don't want him to be worried about me at all. I can't tell him I'm anorexic, what will he think? I know I'm fat, and that's why I just don't eat. Maybe I would eat a cracker now and then, but other than that, I would be perfectly fine. I sighed as I stood up and walked to my room. Well, the one I'm sharing with Ponyboy. Closing the door behind me, I let myself fall on the bed. Only Ponyboy, Johnny, Sodapop, and I were in the house. I don't know where the rest of the gang was. From the room, I could hear the guys talking in the kitchen. 

"I'm worried about her" Soda said. 

"How come?" 

"Well, she hasn't eaten anything all day" Soda responded. 

"She might later on, maybe she's just missing home or something like that" Johnny said. 

"Maybe" Soda replied. 

"I'm worried about her too Soda, she looked bothered when we went to the movies" Ponyboy added.   I felt really bad. Surely I didn't want Ponyboy worrying about me either. I slowly closed my eyes and just thought. My mother suddenly popped into my head. Her poor heart was probably broken now. She has heart problems, so I've always tried my best to keep her happy and not make her upset at all. But with me gone, she's aching, longing for the day when I'll return. It's like, me living here, is hurting everybody around me. What if I'm not meant to be living here? 

"Mary?" I opened my eyes, finding my aunt looking down at me. She had on the same look Sodapop had not too long ago. 

"Hey aunt, what brings you 'round here?" She gave me a smile. 

"I used to live here" she responded. 

"Oh, yea" I said. 

"Anywho," she started, as she signaled me to move aside. I did and she sat on the edge o the bed. "Why haven't you eaten today?" I merely shrugged. 

"I'm not hungry" I replied. 

"Is something wrong?" I shook my head. "Are you sure?" 

"Yea, why do you ask?" 

"Cause, your brothers are really worried about you" she said. 

"Oh" I replied, even though I already knew. 

"Yea, so, why don't yo tell me what's bothering you?" 

"I-I don't really talk about it" I said, suddenly feeling insecure about myself.