My Beta Girl

Chapter 16.

I was sitting on the edge of the cliff breathing in the cold clear air, the sky had cleared up and sun was almost down. 

"Stubborn girl!" Erwin angrily said throwing me a shirt and shorts.

--And he finally found me.

"Did you run all the way just to find me? Seriously Erwin I'm touched by your concern" I grinned coming from behind the tree which I used as a cover to change. 

He rolled his eyes "Stubborn irresponsible kids........"

"You sound like an old man!"

He glared at me "Robin half ate me because I left you again"  

Yeah....... last time I cause him enough trouble running off to the no-man's land alone and getting attacked.

"Oh...... that sounds interesting, I knew you liked guys more and had a crush on Robin!  But eating part is a bit....."

"Selena......" he glared at me with that 'stop-messing-around' look.

"Hmm........ you would be better with Alpha Daves, but Jane and Marcus are good too......"

His deadpan expressions made me sigh, "What?"

"Stop pairing me up with random people and tell me what's wrong!" 

I sighed looking away "I thought Robin was going to come....."

"Robin is making preparations for the interrogation of the rougers"

"Oh...."

"Why did you suddenly lost control? You are usually very cautious about appearances, specially infront of Deltas"

"I- I don't know. Usually Clara doesn't care about most matters unless I ask her opinion.......... the intensity of her feeling combined with my frustration and............ I don't know, all these messed up, uncontrolled emotions.........they are new to me....." 

 I felt helpless, when the initial agitation calmed down I realize how rough and careless my actions were, both in and after the meeting. But I didn't know what to feel, this whole mating thing was new to me too. I could handle a bunch assassins, rougers, training a more than a hundred or even Detla's usual remarks........... 

But no-one ever teaches us to of controlling and sorting emotions, the whole mating thing was a new territory for me to explore................. I didn't know what to feel any longer, specially with all the teenage hormones combined with my wolf's overexcited nature.......    It sometimes felt my emotions were not mine anymore. 

I was eighteen, a legal adult and capable enough to take charge of our pack........ but yet taking charge of a person's emotions was proving to be a challenge.  Why? Because I never bothered to care about hurting someone before. 

Erwin came closer and wrapped an arm around me,  I leaned my head on his shoulder, a comfortable silence enveloped us. 

 "Worried about your boy toy?" he joked. 

I glared at him, "He's my mate, don't call him that stupid thing!"

"Chee......... I know, now don't start using your beta commands on me" He said flicking my head.

"Ouch! That hurts!" I pouted getting pinched on my arm.

"Well, for a fact I don't think Kyle did anything wrong" 

My expression instantly turned cold as I turned away from him, "You talk as if you don't know what's going to happen now......."

"Chill off Selena, you are overreacting. He's not a child you need to protect! I think what he did was right, because he needs to make an image for himself without your support. You are planning to give him the beta title aren't you. Yes he'll be bullied and pushed around initially--"