My Beta Girl

Chapter 17.

Kyle's Pov

My hands paled and mind raced as I nervously sat on the couch. Selena's dark eyes were staring at me with calculative gaze......... they felt colder than usual. 

I might have over-spoken and pissed her off earlier. I looked down on my fidgety fingers, my head bowed in submission not planning to make her more mad at me.

I throughout all my years of being in the bottom of the pack, I had learned one thing that showing submission usually calms another wolf of higher authority. It doesn't matter if it makes you feel uncomfortable of being looked down upon, it ensures ones safety. 

But it didn't work on Selena, it only worsened the case, I could feel anger radiating from her in waves. My wolf whimpered at it........ he was already hurt because she had ignored us, pleading Selena's wolf for attention, he was even ready to get wounded if mate would finally look at us, comforted us............

His emotions scared me more than Selena's frustration earlier. Usually he hated the omega side of our genes, my mother had once told us that our real father was a warrior. The pride and honor of warriors don't permitted them to be looked down upon by regular pack members. Maybe that's why the warrior side of Calvin felt uncomfortable bowing to everyone in our old pack.

It was different with Beta Selena though, instead of feeling uncomfortable, Calvin cheered up like an overexcited puppy when she commanded us. And as much as I loved the tingling sensation in my veins and feeling of being closer to her......... it scared me, both the aspects, Calvin's overexcited actions and the thought that I might be too clingy, which may make her feel disgusted and suffocated.......... I don't want to lose her.....

When Jason told me about the annual league, I was surprised and a bit ........ fascinated. I had already learned that Bloodmoon pack many things were done differently from other packs, from the regular packs.  From the combined conference meetings instead of blank announcements to changing of main house, it was like they had a world of their own which defied every regulation laid by the council and followed by other packs. 

I was excited to learn more about them. All I got to know about the annual league from Jason was that,   it was  a competition held in Bloodmoon  for changing position, if one could defeat the holder, his/her position would be transferred to the challenger. I never bothered to learn combat or weaponry, in the beautiful world full of peaceful medicines, chemicals, laws and equations why would I bent towards the war tactics? 

'Specially since a weak pathetic 'omega' would never be seen for his combat performance'.... 

 'They'll punch you again Kyle....... instead why don't you come and read this with me'

'Don't look up, just look down and submit, maybe they won't hurt  you that badly........this time'

For the first time I really wanted to be strong enough to fight, like my efforts would matter........  I would be able to stand by her if they accepted me.

I didn't want to lose this warm feeling of being close to her, even if she treated me like just another random person, I would be happy to stay close. Maybe the omega side of me did crave for all her attention, but I'll be fine as long as she doesn't completely disregards me.............

  When the former Beta, my mate's father asked me if I wanted to take part in the annual league, I instantly agreed, I saw it as an opening, a way her people would accept me. I wanted to have a place near her, maybe then she her cold eyes hold a cheerful smile more often? I wanted to be worthy of her.................

I hated it when they offered her to mate with anyone other than me....... a more appropriate person for her position......... I was right there but they looked at me like I didn't exist.......