Slow Love 3-Chaos and Disorder

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

Ummm, I think I am euphorically dreaming when I feel a hand on my knee. I think it's him until I hear, "Ma'am, it's time to feed the littlies." I peel my eyes open and see Nanny standing there holding two baby bottles in her hand. Instinctively, I sit up pulling Ethan in my arms to be fed. With my foot, I nudge their Pappa to wake up to feed Violet. Instead, he rolls over with his back to me. I clear my throat, softly, "Darling, it's time to feed the twins." No answer or response. I hand Ethan off to Nanny, move sleeping Violet to the bassinet, grab the collar on his shirt and pull him over on his back. 

"Babe, owie...whatcha doin'?" He says with a groggy catch to his sleepy voice. 

"Wake up, Pappa bear. It's time to feed the twins. Are you going to feed your baby girl or do you want Nanny to feed Violet?" 

Slowly opening his eyes while nodding, "Where is she? Yes, I want to feed her. Why are you being so mean to me?" 

I clear my throat, "When I asked you the first time, you rolled over, turning your back to me without a word. What was I supposed to think?" 

I hand Violet still sleepy over to him, placing her bottle to her lips." 

With a slight trepidation in his voice, "Mama, she's sound asleep. I don't think she's hungry yet." 

I tease her lips with the nipple until she quickly latches on. "Take over, Sweetie." He takes the bottle from me to feed her. 

"Mama, I think she wants you. She's not sucking on the bottle for me. She doesn't like me." Expressing to me in his sad and disappointed tone. 

I take a deep breath, exhaling heavily. Taking in a couple more soft breaths. Lowly I whisper, "My darling, Violet loves you. You are her Pappa." Rethinking, I could just pop him in the middle of his forehead when he acts like this. We have a tassle of babies on the way and I cannot deal with his goofy self-loathing stuff. He has to stop that. 

I turn back to Nanny to get Ethan. "Ma'am, he's about finished. Your boy was really hungry this time, sipping it quickly down. Allow me to change him and bring him back to you." I nod. "Sir, what time is dinner tonight?" He tells her 7 PM for delivery and set up, dinner will be served at 7:30. 

"Ma'am, may I fix them up for you and the Mister? You both are exhausted and need to get a couple more hours to sleep before dinner. I will bring Ethan back to you in a jiffy, then Violet should be finished." 

I am so blessed to have an insightful helper. "Thanks, Nanny. That'll be wonderful." I scoot back down under the covers. As soon as my head hit the pillow, I think I clocked out momentarily until he nudged me when Ethan arrived. I cuddled up with him and that was all she wrote.

I wake up on my own accord at 7 pm. Ethan is sprawled on top of me nestled between my breasts using one as a pacifier. I look over and my darling husband, who is watching intensely. I whisper, "Hello, my Love." 

He startles quickly looking at me. "Mama, I didn't know you were awake. How do you feel, rested?" 

"Yeah, I feel great. I think I am finally getting caught up. I wonder if everyone is back?"