Slow Love 3-Chaos and Disorder

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Nanny pulls up a chair next to the bed beside me to monitor us with the baby girls. She is totally in her element and it gives me a safe and peaceful feeling having her close by. I scoot closer to my husband and as soon as my body brushes against him, the electrical connection is made and his hand comes wandering over to mine. He gently folds his hand over mine on Baby B's back. Wow, what a wonderful connection I feel transmitting through him to her. I open my eyes, roll my head towards him. Our eyes meet and tears start flowing down both our cheeks out of the bliss of pure joy and happiness. 

Whispering to not wake the babies, "Mama, I am so happy right now. The nurse that brought her back to me said, 'Daddy, your little girl is healthy and perfect in every way. Hold her close to feel your warmth. It's helping to keep her out of the NICU.' We made two beautiful, healthy and perfect babies. They are as beautiful as their Mother." 

Hearing him say all that just made me sob harder. Nanny jumps up, "Ma'am, what's wrong? Is something wrong with you or one of the babies?" 

Shaking my head and choking back my joyful tears, stuttering to talk, "Everything is just fine. Nanny, the babies are so perfect. How can two imperfect people make two beautifully perfect identical twins? Not one, but two carbon copies, two! Please explain to me how we managed such perfection?" 

She sits back down in her chair, smiling ear to ear, "Well Ma'am, There is no greater blessing than a new baby. God is trusting you with the most precious gift and he will guide you both as you embark on this fantastic journey. Babies are an example of God's perfection and his precious love." 

That fairly well sums it all up. I look over to my darling husband, "Pappa, let's trade babies. I want to hold my firstborn, please?" He is laying there doggo like he's asleep. I try to pry her away from him but he just holds her tighter. 

The pediatric nurse is there, "Sir, it's time to switch babies with your wife. They need time to bond with each of you." He is not acknowledging either of us. I know how to get his attention as I gently lay my hand on Mr. Happy and grab him tight. Those eyes pop open with a startle. 

"Is Mama getting frisky?" 

"Nope, just trying to get your attention. Mama wants to hold her other baby girl. Will you switch with me?" 

"Huh-uh." 

Nanny walks around to his side, lifts the covers back to expose my first baby girl. His eyes pop open again, "Nanny, no!" 

Uh-oh here it comes, "Sir, the Misses needs to bond with each baby and so do you. Please cooperate for the best results with the littles." In the meantime, the pediatric nurse comes to get my baby. 

He speaks in a whispering low voice, "Nanny, I am afraid to move her that something bad is going to happen when she leaves me. Please assure me she will be okay?" 

Nanny takes a deep breath, "Sir, both babies are doing exceptionally well. There are no signs or symptoms of anything to the contrary. Your wife needs time to bond with baby A and you need time to bond with baby B. The pediatric nurse and I will be right here to make sure the littles are safe and sound and nothing changes." 

He releases Baby A to Nanny and the nurse immediately lays Baby B on his chest. "Dad, your Baby B is perfect and healthy too. Hold her close like the other baby to feel your warmth and keep her warm." 

 Quickly Nanny places Baby A on me and I get a sudden rush of endorphins. Woah, what a great feeling to have her on me. My receptors are firing all over the place. She is trying to rout around in my breasts like the other baby. I stroke her head and softly talk to her. She looks up at me scanning my face. The babies are studying our faces and getting to know us. We talk to them, cuddle up with them and before long, both babies cry that unmistakable cry to be fed.