"You were supposed to die, just like your stupid father."
"If it wasn't for my father, you people would've been long gone, and I mean dead!"
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Jackie, a normal 18 years old teenage girl doesn't have a normal teenage...
Jackie's words from yesterday were painful. Although I knew I deserved them but it still did hurt. All I wanted in these two days was to talk to her, to confide in her and finally when I got the chance, I blew it up.
Yesterday when Jackie came to hug me, all I wanted was to forget every thing and every being around me and get lost in her warm embrace but my stupid ego had to intervene. It couldn't digest the fact that she was someone else's girlfriend.
Girlfriend
The word itself generated a wave of emotions in my mind. And with the emotions came several questions.
Why was I so angry on Jackie for being Taehyung's?
Why was I so angry on Taehyung for making Jackie his?
In the past three days, every time I wanted to be with Jackie, she was with that stupid brat. Every time I wanted to hold her hand, she held his and for some unknown reason, their interactions filled me with jealousy. My rage kept on increasing and I finally bursted out on Jackie. I spat every hurtful words I could muster, on her face.
I anticipated to feel good after emptying my mind but some how I didn't. Infact, I was feeling worse. Jealousy and rage had already confiscated my mind, now another depressive emotion occupied my soul, guilt. The single drop of tear that had dropped down from Jackie's ocean eyes created a flood of regret in my heart. I melted at the sight and wanted to apologise to her right away but the way Taehyung defended her angered me even more. So I ran away from that place. I couldn't understand why every time I saw Taehyung with Jackie, I wanted to imagine myself in his place.
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I stared at the starry dark midnight sky as I walked towards the lake side. Whenever I felt dejected, it was the cold breeze from the lake that re-established my inner calm. It was the only thing that never betrayed me.
As soon as I reached at the spot, I noticed a black silhouette, occupying my space. I was a little suspicious at the beginning but as I moved closer, I very easily recognized the figure.
"Did your stupid boyfriend ditch you here and run away?" I asked her in a sassy tone.
Jackie turned around and looked at me with sharp eyes. There were several emotions oozing out of her intense gaze but I couldn't decipher even one of them. She didn't say anything though, just turned back around. I couldn't tolerate her ignorance so I pulled her up harshly to face me.
"What's wrong with you?" she snapped at me, her dark orbs almost scared me.
"You are what's wrong with me" I snapped back. She looked at me with utter confusion but didn't say anything. So I continued.
"The day you entered my life, I lost everything. My father betrayed me, my luck betrayed me, my fate betrayed me. Then you came and preached so many things about our friendship. But as always, history repeated itself and you betrayed me as well" I broke down.
"When did I betray you, huh?" Jackie asked arrogantly as she pushed me behind harshly.
"I considered you my friend when I tried to talk to you yesterday."
Push
"I considered you my friend when I tried to hug you."
Push
"But all you did was embarrass me in front of everyone" Jackie kept on pushing me backwards.
"You called me a cheap slut in front of everyone" this time I grabbed her wrists before she could push me any further. I pulled her closer to my body and yelled at her,
"You betrayed me when you left me alone and went away with Kim Taehyung. You said you would be there for me but guess what, you never were."
"I tried to be there but it was you who pushed me away" she scoffed as she tried to get out of my hold and I ended up holding her tighter but the next thing I did shook both of us to the core.
I pulled Jackie closer to my face and smashed my lips on hers. I wrapped my arms around her waist firmly and I did not want to let her go, never.
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My heart was filling with an odd satisfaction by her mere presence in my proximity. The simple display of affection gave rise to major complex emotions in me. However, she tried her best to free herself from my hold and eventually succeeded. She just looked up at me with an astonished expression.
"You stole my first kiss!" she spat through gritted teeth and slapped me across my left cheek. She then ran away from there.
I stood there frozen at my spot. I was lost in some kind of bliss and didn't want to come out of it. I just wanted to cherish the moments from a few seconds ago when I had Jackie in my arms, enclosed in my embrace. I wanted to relive the sensations I felt when her warm lips were on mine. And I couldn't stop smiling at the fact that I was Jackie's first kiss.
