Love never dies

Chapter 7 : not his child

Raoul came home late that night . As usual , he came home drunk . He walked into the room and sloppily walk towards the bed . I was sleeping well I acted like I already slept . Ugh the smell of alcohol, it burns my nose . I hate it so much. Raoul just get into bed and sleep without showering. Within a few seconds and he's out.

I sat up and touch my stomach . How I pity this child . It's real father is missing or probably dead i dont even know . And the father available is always drunk and violent . Guess I have to raise it up all by myself . I have to be strong for this baby . This baby is all I have left that I can count on now . I already felt so much love for this child . And if Raoul could not accept that it's not his and divorce me , it doesn't matter . I'll find a way to survive on my own . I keep on rubbing my stomach till I fell asleep .

The next morning I woke up and felt my stomach aching again . I ran to the bathroom and vomit . Ugh all these cramps and nausea feeling . I felt so weak . But then I gathered all my strength and walk out towards the window . I look outside and gaze at how peaceful the view is . De Chagny house is near the ocean. My room has a nice view of it so I open the window and breathe the air in . It was so calming . And then Raoul woke up . He hugged me from behind .

" Good morning beautiful " he kissed my cheeks
" Morning . " I turned and look at him .
" Raoul , we need to talk . "
" Sure what is it Christine ? "

I gather my courage and say
" I'm pregnant. "
" You are ? " I was expecting him to shout at me .
" I am . I'm 6 weeks along "
" Well I guess it was the wedding night . " he said .

Wait what ?! We never slept together . He actually thought we did ? He must be so drunk that he don't even remember anything from that night .

" Of course , silly ." I fake a smile and laughed . I couldn't bring myself to tell him that it's not his . What would he do if I told him it's Erik's ? Only god knows .

" Alright , that's great to hear . Now we have a heir to hand down my inheritance . " he kissed my lips and then went to the bathroom and shower .

I let out a sigh of relief . I was glad he did not remember anything . But also I was expecting him to divorce me and leave me alone because I cannot stand the way he treat me and the way he acts . If this is how he is then how is he going to treat me in the future ? Is it going to be worse ? Will he harm the child ? I do not know . I guess it's another problem for another day .

9 months later ..

Raoul been drinking lesser and caring more because I'm pregnant . He hasn't laid his hand on me ever since I told him I'm pregnant. I'm grateful for that atleast he still cares and has a sense of responsibilities. But what would he do if he ever find out it isn't his ? What if when this child came out and looks nothing like him ? Raoul has a totally black eye and I have a hazel brown eyes . What if he has Erik's eyes ? That blue sapphire eye ... god I prayed to god this child will look more like me than Erik .

I woke up and felt a wet sensation on my bed . Then I felt pain . I woke Raoul up and he quickly know what's going on . So he brought me to the hospital where it's already time for me to deliver this baby . The pain grew and grew , the contractions get harder and harder . Within 20 minutes and we already reach the hospital . Raoul looks so worried . It actually calmed me down . The Nurses straight away bring me to the delivery room .

" There I can see his head . Just push a little more Madame " the doctor said . I was already sweating and dying of pain . I gave one last push and then I heard the cry of my baby . I felt so relieved . The baby is here now and he is safe . The doctor gave me the baby . He look so beautiful. Then Raoul came in . He smiled and kissed my forehead . I didn't care much about that kiss but this baby I'm holding I love him so much . That moment onwards I promise myself to never let anything hurt this boy of mine . Even if Raoul gets violent in the future , I will never allow him to lay his hand on him .

" Does the boy have a name ? " the doctor asked .
" It's Gustave . " I know I would name him after my father ever since I found out I'm pregnant . I've been praying that it would be a boy and when I find out it's a boy , Gustave is the only name that's been on my mind .
" Gustave what ? " the doctor asked again . Yea what will his last name be ? Raoul is not his actual father but he doesn't know .. I quickly think
" Gustave Daee De Chagny " Raoul look at me and see that I'm serious . He doesn't dare to question me because of how tiring I look . Then the doctor left the room . Raoul went out to settle the bills . I was left alone with Gustave . I keep staring at him and notice his eyes . It is blue .. he has Erik's eyes . It's so beautiful . Oh Erik how I wish it was you who were here and not Raoul . Imagine you holding our son .. I can imagine you singing to him right now . And also singing to me because you always know that your singing , your music calms me down ... I keep on thinking about Erik and then i fell asleep .